The Worst (Jhene Aiko Fanfiction)

3:16

3:16 am
I can't sleep I've been up all night, researching and finding out what is wrong with me it turns out I have some mental disorder, yeah because the word mental isn't crazy at all, it turns out I have one called schizophrenia; I researched it on the NHS website which came up with:

Schizophrenia is a long-term mental health condition that causes a range of different psychological symptoms, including:

hallucinations - hearing or seeing things that do not exist
delusions - unusual beliefs not based on reality which often contradict the evidence
muddled thoughts based on the hallucinations or delusions
changes in behaviour
Doctors often describe schizophrenia as a psychotic illness. This means sometimes a person may not be able to distinguish their own thoughts and ideas from reality.

So basically I'm insane, well I wasn't expecting this that's for sure, what a night your boyfriend of a year tells you he's been cheating on you, your minds trying to convince you that you want to kill him, even though it don't sound that bad of an idea, wait what? I didn't just do that I need to talk to Krissy, someone I'm slowly turning into a psycho...okay so that was probably a little extreme, but what if it gets worse I might not be able to control myself next time.
Bryan's been trying to get through to me all night but I've just ignored him hopefully he's either got the message of he just stopped in case I was asleep or something like that because maybe still cares...pfft I doubt that very much I need someone here beside me.

*Incoming call: Babe<3*

I really need to to change his name in my phone does he really think I'm gonna answer the phone he must be crazy, I swear everything's just going downhill for me, I need to tell Krissy but I'm scared what she'd say I'm sure she'd be cool with it and help me out she is one of my main girls for a reason, but still I ain't taking any risks I just need to go sleep I'll sort all this out on my own I don't need anyone they all leave me anyway no ones ever stood by me, besides Miyagi and Krissy, I'll just ring her because this is important.

Krissy:JHENÉ AIKO DO YOU REALISE IT'S LIKE NEARLY LIKE FOUR AM!...wait your crying? Baby girl what's up you can tell me...jhene

Jhené:KRISSY I'M CRAZY AF I'VE GOT SOME MENTAL DISORDER CALLED SCHIZOPHRENIA WHAT AM I GOING TO DO I'M GOING INSANE, WATCH I'LL END UP IN ONE OF THOSE NUTHOUSES ASYLUM THINGS HELP ME PLEASE

Krissy:BABE CALM DOWN...I'll help you just calm down, stay calm well as I said it is like 4:30 am right now just sleep it off and I'll come round tomorrow as early as I can

Jhené:O-okay I will alright make sure you do I guess I'll see you tomorrow then to be honest I'm actually kinda tired so I'm going to go then...see you later

Krissy: I will do what do you take me for some idiot? aha nah I love you chick night babe

Well I guess that was better than I expected, much better to be fair aha I may as well take her advice and go sleep seeing as I'm kinda tired...peace out