stuff that is on my mind

March 19, 2019

So right now it is midnight and I am awake because I have way too many thing in my head right now. I just want to tell someone these things right now but everyone is sleep like normal people.

I broke up with my boyfriend because he has been ignoring me for almost 2 weeks now. Also we live 3 hours away.

My school is having a musical and I was helping with the costumes by ironing some fabric. And while I was ironing I just started wanting to burn myself with the iron.

I dont want to go to my 1st class of the school day because the whole class hates me and they make it known that they hate me. They say so much bad stuff to me.

I want to hurt myself.

I think I am useless.

I think I am a hopeless human being.

I dont think I will ever find true love.

I dont think I can be loved.

I am not pretty.

I'm ugly.

I'm weak.

I'm useless.

A waste of space.

An annoyance.

Something that you want to get rid of but cant.

Grades suck.

Might not graduate this year.

Useless.

A pig.

Fat.

Like by none.

Hated by all.

This is what is going through my head right now. I know no one will see this, but I cant leave it in my head.