ꜰᴏʀᴇᴠᴇʀ ʏᴏᴜʀꜱ • ᴛᴀᴇᴋᴏᴏᴋ 【✓】

Chapter 26

Taehyung's perspective

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Dear diary,

Another day passed away and no clue where Kookie is. It's winter now and I miss him a lot.

I will be honest with you. This life had never been so bore as it is now. I don't know how I was living without him until now because now his absence is unacceptable for me.
Tears threaten to fall everytime from my eyes whenever I close my eyes and see him and only him.
I love him so much but I didn't get the chance to say everything that I wanted to say.
It hurts me so much why doesn't he call me? He should've asked about me.
I wonder how he is? Hope his mother doing well.
Does he miss me too as much as I miss him? Does he still love me?

I pray lord to take care of him wherever he is.
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I slided down on my bed inside my quilt. I closed my eyes and his face was stuck in my head.

I couldn't help but cry again. I could only see him in my mind but I wanted to hold him tightly and wanted to tell him that how much I was missing him.

I was having different feelings on my heart, I was angry because he didn't care to call me once, I was upset because he left all of a sudden, I was sad because I was missing him, I was desparate because I wanted to meet him, I was helpless because I couldn't do anything.

I better decided to close my eyes. His memories were coming in my mind and I treasured them very much because they were the only thing that I had with him after he left.

Jungkook's perspective

Another day passed away and my body ached hardly after working for the whole day. I threw myself on the bed and closed my eyes.

My mind filled up with the events that happened with me that day. I was like a point of attention for everyone in the industry. They were thinking I was lucky enough to get the company of my father without any efforts but did they know what I had costed for it.

I lost my happiness, my friends, my love. Their memories could hurt me more and I hated to show my tears because my mother would always load me with questions that I could never answer.

I was doing everything just to see her in front of my eyes. She had faced a lot in her life to raise me and it was my time to payback.

There was only one escape from my sadness and it was alcohol. I locked the door inside and pulled out the bottle of wine. I didn't care to take the glass out. I started to sip the drink as the tears rushed down my eyes.

I held the sweater that he gave me close to my heart. It was a gift from him and I would cry all night with it. It felt warm and fragile just like him.

I called Jimin on his birthday to wish him, I knew he would load me with questions that I hated a lot so I lied. I was dying to hear about Taehyung. I was dying to hear his voice but I couldn't because it would only break me more.

His voice was stuck in my head, when he used to call me by name. It was one of the best thing in the world.

I wish I could tell him that how much I loved him, how much I missed him. But I couldn't because I knew I couldn't have him at the time and he couldn't have me.

It was useless, all useless.

Everytime I closed my eyes, his gorgeous face was there. His sweet smile could light up my day.

Everytime I felt sad and discouraged. His one hug was enough to start the life again.

I wanted him so bad. I wanted him to hold me. I wanted to cry on his shoulder and wanted to say how much I missed him.

I wish I could do.

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