Dear Internet,

entry three: march 21,2019

dear internet,
life sucks.
no. actually. it sucks. i literally hate life sometimes. the only part that i'm not hating right now is that i have a boyfriend and a few good friends. my grades are terrible. my relationship with my longest best friend is been crap recently. i feel like i'm annoying my boyfriend. (he says i'm not annoyingbut i'm worried. i'm a worrier.)
my relationship with my parents could be better. we have been arguing a little recently. my mom has been getting a attitude and not letting stupid things go.
i just found out my great uncle was just diagnosed with als. i looked it up and the most people live is up to 5 years. it literally breaks my heart, because i love him. he reminds me a lot of my grandpa Joe who i lost in 2017.

also! yes there's more. i've been sick with the flu for like 5 days and this is the first day i haven't ran a temperature.
-however-
i did almost pass out today in the shower, because i have been sick i haven't felt like eating anything other than pudding. i haven't been eating breakfast or lunch. basically i've been eating like two puddings, maybe something else small and then at night i ate soup. anyway, so i was getting my shower. i was having a hard time as soon as i got in. like 6 minutes go by and i'm dizzy and feel weak. i'm like okay gotta get through this. i wash my hair with my shampoo. then i start getting really really dizzy. i sit down on the bath tub. (it's like a bathtub and a shower, ya know!) i'm trying to calm myself. i soon realize i'm going to have to do this on the floor of the tub. i finish my shower and literally went into my room, wrapped in a towel and laid on the floor for like 10 minutes. after i ate a sandwich and i was fine. still a experience that did not feel good though..
this is honestly a really bad time right now. that's all the depressing shitacimushrooms i have for you today.

yours truly,
M