I'm sorry but I can't anymore (dedicated to a former friend)

dear jessie

Hey Jessie,

I bet by now you're probably thinking

"Why the hell do you still think of me at all?! Didn't you know that you screwed up everything?!?!"

And yes. I know. I know very well that I'm a shitty person that shouldn't have been born and is way better off dead.

And as for the thinking of you....

I honestly don't know.

What I do know is that I regret hurting you but I am 1000% possitive that I don't regret hurting Riley.

I did that not because I was in the mood to hurt her

I did it so I could guarantee that her and me won't be friends

I don't even want her in my life!

Anyway this is most likely the last thing I will ever tell you

Just keep in mind that I miss you but I can't anymore with my bullshit and you probably can't eather

And if you see this ive most likely moved on.

Im sorry

Goodbye

-a former friend