Random stuff about life and love

i was lost....

I was lost. I was falling. Extremely hard. Waking up every morning feeling horrible about myself, going to sleep every night wishing id never wake up. people thought i was fine. "Fine". But I really wasn't. I struggled to find true friends and I struggled to feel confident with myself. anything remotely rude that was said to me would ruin my day, and id come home crying. until one day I heard the name "austin mahone" I googled him and began to cry. I knew he was special. I knew he was the one. And he was. Falling so hard and deep, he caught me, and gave me his shoulder to cry on. He made me feel loved and beautiful. He made everything better. he taught me that those rude comments, the ones that would make me cry, were only opinions. And that opinions don't matter. That what matters is how you think about yourself. and now when I'm upset, he is always there, telling me it's gonna be ok. Whenever I'm scared or nervous, he's holding my hand, cheering me on. I used to struggle and stress over sports, I sucked. I used to try to play, but I couldn't. Boys would say things to me in gym class, but with austin I can walk away. Walk away and feel happy, because people who say those things don't really matter. I finally found a sport I love, a sport I'm actually good at, for heavens sake I've joined a team. And when I wake up, I feel beautiful and skinny and happy, I feel loved and cared for. It's makes me realize how much has changed with this boy in my life. lots of people won't understand, but if they'd read this they would, they'd understand that the boy I obsess over, caught me during my darkest hours, and lifted me up into the light. He comforted me and let me know, that he does care. And he does love me. And that everything is gonna be ok, if I just trust myself. And I took a chance, and now I'm on top of the world. But even sometimes here and then I'll start to fall again, but before I hit the bottom, I'll be back on top, because that boy, those boys, caught me.