Ash heart

2. Can you help me out?

I listened to my father's speech. He wanted to push me down as always. His words were sharp, like small knives. They cut my body, invisible blood was everywhere. Sometimes I hoped I could just kill him.

I didn't listen, and he noticed it. He raised his hand and hit me on the cheek. It didn't hurt, I had experienced it before. This was not the first time, nor the last.When he was finally finished, he left. I didn't care to check where, because I left too. I ran all the way to the bridge and went under it. The sun started to fall, just like yesterday. I was breathless. I sat down, the same spot as yesterday. I listened again to the voices around me. Birds singing ... the wind is flowing around...

Steps.

I opened my eyes and saw Minhyuk. His white hair was wet. He knelt in front of me and took my hand. "Hyungwon, let's go!" He smiled and yanked me up.He pulled me to the river and pushed me. I fell into the river and he jumped after me. He smiled and splashed water on me. "This is fun!"

I stood in my place and looked at him. I wanted to laugh with him, but I did not know how. Minhyuk stopped and glanced at me. He lowered his hands. "Why don't you smile?"

The question was straight, but it didn't surprise me. "I don't know how..." I said, eyes on the ground.

Minhyuk sighed and took my hand again. "It doesn't matter. I can show you how to do it!" He said.

I wanted to be like him. Happy, clean, beautiful ... I was sad, dirty and ugly. Nothing was good in me.

Minhyuk pulled me out of the water and we walked back under the bridge. I wiped my face.

Minhyuk closed his eyes. "It is good to be here. With you."

"You don't even know me..."

"I do. I know you now."

"What does that mean?"

"It means that I like you. You're nice."

I looked again at the ground. Minhyuk sighed."Don't subjugate yourself." He said. He then smiled. "Would you like to meet my other friends?" He asked.

I nodded.

I wanted life. I wanted to feel more than just pain and sadness. A life that would awaken me from this nightmare that has chained me. I wanted to be a human and not a beast.