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The next morning I woke up, I heard my mom and dad's arguement. I began to blame myself . I might be the one who caused it for late at night yesterday I asked my dad a stupid yet sensible question. If only I waited for them both to bring that topic up this would have not happend. I'm so disgraceful. I don't know what to do so I barge in to their room next door. I saw them calmly sitting next to each other now. I promply asked,"I'm sorry for what I asked dad yesterday, I should've waited for you mom". I don't saw their expression because all the time my heads bowed down. Then after a few seconds my mom lift my head up and said, "We're so sorry for waking you up because of this, it's not your fault, your father and I just got carried away. Go back to your room honey, we'll talk about this later okay?". As I hold back all my questions all I said was,"Okay". Then I head back to my room fast. I can't hold back my tears anymore, I kept on causing everone trouble. I laid on my bed for hours, staring at the sealing of a room that all my life contains. Then everything just flashed into my mind. The time I discovered that books are amazing, the way they make everything into life. The time I've got my first laptop then started to search for things like what's the world outside. The time that my tutor got angry of me because I kept on asking out-of-the-topic questions. All of the things I've discovered and felt for the rest of my life up 'till now. My tutor was my only friend as they mention in books. A friend is someone there with you, not related by blood but shares each other's lives. Something like that I guess. My parents are always the ones picking the books I read. Mostly their fiction, so it always excites me. Aliens invading earth but for the reason to help. A superhero that really isn't. Dogs that talk to humans. They're all pretty interesting. But when I started to excel at everything my tutor teaches me, she seldomly comes to our house. That's when I realized that I'm missing a life.