We all know that feeling like we are gonna die, if this one thing doesn't happen, its the end of the world, if that one person doesn't like you back, all hell breaks lose, if that one person leaves you its like you whipped in the heart for hours on end without any breaks. I ,for one, know exactly how that feels. Though, I am in a relationship with someone who makes me happy and gives me life, shows me love and respect, I am with someone who is irreplaceable. Everyone asks me why do I chose to love someone when you can be out having fun doing things and not having to worry about breaking his heart. Well, here's the thing, I'm loyal. I love him, I have a wild responsibility, whats that you ask? Well, I have to take care of his trust, love, honesty and loyalty, I also have to take care of myself. I have to say, I was not mentally stable or emotionally stable to be in a relationship six months ago, but I did it I committed and I did a pretty damn good job if I do say so myself. This is the one real relationship I have ever had and It will most likely be my first and last true love. If you asked my friends, they will tell you how in love with this boy I am. I refuse to hang out with them, I refuse to let anything bad get in the way of my love. But, I do try to make time for them too, just not too much because then my baby will be sad. My time with my love is very limited, I really only see him at school, maybe a Saturday or a Sunday if we are lucky. My baby also doesn't speak much English, so when I ramble off talking crazy it doesn't bother him. I sing when I get bored, and my friends say I have a really nice voice. I think they are crazy and on drugs, but when he says it, it means something. I feel his emotion on what says, his passion for things, lets take soccer for example, we both love to play soccer, but when he plays I can see that it is something he really loves. I know all this sounds crazy, but guess what, I'm crazy, I'm wild, you just have to find it. Hint, anyone who knows me that's reading this you haven't found it, and you might not, not yet at least.
