Dealing with a Loss.

Intermission. (Chapter One)

So I'll start this off by saying I'm unsure on where this will lead, and if I'll continue it, Also, My Grammar isn't perfect but I'm also uncaring at this time, I write this to tell the world about my story, I write this because maybe, just maybe, someone out there won't feel so alone going through something so tragic.

With that being said here we go: My Name is Austin, For personal reasons let's not share my last name on here, I'm currently 21 and dealing with a trumendous burdon, something I've been carrying with me for a few years now, I've lost someone very special in my life, a Son, someone I loved and cared for, and continue to care for, someone I greif for everyday, This whole thing.... It's so hard to explain but I supose I could explain it with a question I asked someone, "When does all this get "easy to deal with?" 

The anwser I got was, "it doesn't, we just learn to deal with it in our own special way, the son I lost was Named Kaison, a very beautiful, young soul, everything about him... Just brings me to tears, seeing him for the last time completely unaware of knowing any of this would happen.

In order to explain any of this the way I'd like I'll have to take you back a few years, I was with a very beautiful young woman, we had ended up having a child at a young age, but before any of that let me explain to you about "us" We where a very good cupple for our age, way to mature due to growing up before we where ready, using each other to build our empire, our walls, our lives, with her, I could do anything, with me, she could do anything, so before you ask, no, I DO not feel as if we where a "bad relationship" As you would call it, However, The City I live in is known to be a very mentally draining place, that'll tear you down, rip you apart, bring you to your knees if you let it, The city I live in will break you, rip people from your arms, drive two beautiful souls apart, If you let it that is. 

No, Not us, that would've NEVER been us, "Forever and always, we said, Fighting the world with each other, in each other's arms... We could truly do anything..." I guess that was my first mistake, Putting so much into someone who in the end, couldn't of felt the same, couldn't of delt with the presure of this world, tearing down on her shoulders, Myself, I constantly reminded her that "We got this, As long as you have me, and I have you, We'll do anything we put our minds too!" 

So young, so nieve, So...Stupid, to think we could've really pulled it off, She aproched me one day telling me, "I'm pregnet" Myself? I stood there in shock... Scared, worried, OVethinking as I always do, However, with my current mentality at the time I seen it as, "we'll do this, we can do anything" Until... We didn't, for personal reasons neither of us had control over, she moved out of the city with her Family, left me behind, our relationship slowly went downhill, and when I mean slowly, I mean like a snowball...