Life happens

Dear Diary

   Dear diary, today I saw Cade Wilson, captain of the football team and Mr. Popularity. But as per usual me being invisible to everyone he didn't see me, I guess that is a good thing. Maya saw me staring and tapped on my shoulder to tell me the bell rang. My best friend Maya was always there for me, we would hang out in the choir room and eat lunch together everyday, she would come over after school to hang out and do homework. I told her everything, even that regardless of cliques I had a crush on Cade Wilson ever since the first day of high school. Everytime I see him it's like the rest of the world ceases to exist. The only time people know that I exist at school is when they need homework help or want to tease me. The queen bee of the school Sydney is especially heinous. She knows that I have a crush on Cade and uses that to her advantage to blackmail me into doing her homework. They are the two most popular people at the school so it is no shock that they are dating. School today was the same as everyday, me going through the motions until my choir class when I could truly be myself, singing is what makes me happy. After school I walked home with Maya, she likes to come over because her parents don't get home from work until late, our parents have an agreement because we have been friends for so long. We did homework for an hour then talked until it was dinner time. All of my siblings and their kids came over for dinner, my mom likes to have everyone over for family dinner once a week. Maya says she always feels weird staying, but since she is my best friend and the only person at school who is nice to me, my mom loves her. My moms motto is 'there is always room for one more' it is a motto I too think is helpful in life. After dinner my older sister Melissa drove Maya home because she is on the way. Now I am getting ready for bed, I am reading Of Mice and Men for my English class. Suddenly I hear my mom yelling "Juliette Elizabeth get your butt in this kitchen right now", uh oh when she uses middle names you know you're in trouble. I had forgotten to clean up the kitchen after dinner and have her sign a permission slip for school. Good thing I wasn't anything too serious. I zoned out reading and I dreamt about my life would be if I was a different person, would my future impact my present? Cade and I were together, but then we ended up not being together once college started because of distance and plans, I became a high powered marketing exec, and he was a high school football coach. Totally not compatible, though we still remained friends. I had a lawyer husband and he went back to Sydney who is the cheer coach, their lives did not amount to much. I had to call Maya and tell her about what I was thinking so she could pull me out of dreamland so to speak.

    This week is the last week of my sophomore year. There are no actual classes just finals and spirit week. All kinds of fun events are going on; character day, Hawaiian shirt day, movie day, and finally the pep rally. Every day when I finished my finals I would go to the choir room and wait for Maya, my music teacher asked me to sing the national anthem at the pep rally, I am really nervous about singing in front of everyone that I practice every chance that I can. I have never sung by myself in front of so many people and I am not sure that I will be able to. During one practice session, my life changed completely. Singing has always been my favorite thing to do, I took me places I could never go. I could express my feelings and sing about issues that matter and are important to me personally. 

Chapter 1: The Beginning

Cade, and I met in high school. He was captain of the football team and I was a nobody from choir and glee club. I was one of those people that would get bullied and things thrown at them because I belonged to a club that wasn't popular, Cade was part of the group that did the bullying. we never talked until the end of sophomore year. He heard me practicing for the end of the year pep rally one day after school, claimed my angelic voice took his breath away. We introduced ourselves and talked all afternoon, until I had to get home, he offered to drive me home. I gave him my number in case he wanted to talk. After that night i was still bullied at school but Cade would stick up for me because he didn't want to be a person to bring other people down. During the pep rally I noticed that he was staring at me, and when I sang the national anthem he was mesmerized, after it had ended he found me in the choir room packing my things and told me that I did amazing. I have heard stories about him being a bad boy. He was into girls, drugs, booze and being a popular jock that got away with anything. He asked me if I wanted to get a cup of coffee after the pep rally, I accepted. We went to this cute little coffee shop and talked for hours, it was the best day I've had in a long time. On the last day of school, he threw a party at his mansion, and invited the whole class. I was only planning on going for an hour just to say hi to Cade and try the food he convinced me to stay for one game, I took Maya with me so I had someone to talk to. It was an insane party, caterers, drinks, and of course the usual high school games. The most popular girl, captain of the cheerleading team, and Cades latest girlfriend suggested we play a version of spin the bottle, truth or dare, and 7 minutes in heaven. Probably figuring that she could get Cade to profess his love or at the very least make out with her in a closet. The joke was on her because as fate would have it the bottle pointed to both me and Cade. We were asked a truth or dare and then had to carry out the game in the closet with the other person. I chose truth and we went into the closet I told him a secret and then we kissed. It was so magical, but I had never been kissed before and I was embarrassed, so I ran out and left the party Maya apologized to him for me and ran out to catch me and take me home. He called me the next morning to see if everything was ok, and I told him why I freaked out. He thought it was cute, he asked if we could meet at the park, I accepted. I went to the park and walked over to the bridge by the pond it was one of my favorite places. Whenever I needed to be alone I would come here to think or write songs, no one knew about this place and I was truly able to be alone with my thoughts. That day I decided to share this special place with Cade even though I knew he probably would have thought it was lame. It was sweet that he felt as comfortable there as I did.