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May 23rd 2013

"mom no please" I stared at her laying in the hospital bed with tears endlessly streaming down my face. I was the only one standing in the room.

"hazel, baby, I love you. You are the reason I've kept going on and on for the past couple years. You are so strong and worth so much. Don't you ever forget that. I am so proud of you. I want you to graduate and go do what you love. Lisa told me she'd look after you. I'm sorry I have to leave so early. I love you to the moon and back hazel. I love you."

5/23/16  7:35pm

She had just taken her last breath after fighting three years of breast cancer. The memory that would haunt me until the day I died.

"you did it mom, you won " I sobbed and sobbed. I knew she would be sent up into a better place. She had won her battle. Her pain and suffer was over, but mine had only just begun.

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"excuse me miss, I'm gonna have to ask you to leave." I looked up to lock my eyes with the doctor.

I gently released my mother's ice cold hand that I didn't want to let go of.  My 14 year old mind still couldn't wrap my head around everything that was going. She was really gone.

I stood up and walked out of the door. I turned around and took one last look.

"I love you mom, forever and always."

I grabbed my bike and rode as fast as I could home. Trying to avoid all the creeps and weirdos at this hour.

I pulled into the black, pavemented driveway and put the code in for the garage. I kicked the bike kickstand down and stubbled in to the garage door.

I took my hands and flipped the kitchen light on. It was dim, barely even lighting the kitchen.

I sat alone at my kitchen table. A feeling I wish I could ignore. My heart was heavy. I tried to take my mind off losing her. Tears continuously streamed down my face whenever I thought about it. I didn't have a shoulder I could cry on. Someone to hug me and tell me that everything was gonna be alright. That I was gonna be okay. I just felt so numb.

My grandparents live 7 hours away and I rarely ever see them. There's no way in hell they'd ever take me in. My dad, well I wouldn't even consider him a father at all, left 4 years ago before everything started to go downhill. I haven't seen him since then. Not for holidays. Not for sporting events. Nothing. Not once.

I'd live with a family friend. Lisa Dolan. She has two twin boys and an older daughter. She hasn't seen her husband since he left after their boys turned 4. It truly was a sad story. I rarely chose to talk to her kids. We just never bonded, but maybe that could change.

Two headlights pulled into the driveway. They were coming to pick me up to take me to their house. I didn't even want to imagine what was in store for me.
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hi, so this was kinda a filler, get to know what's going on kinda chapter. So if you're confused, hazel lost her mom. Her dad hasn't been present in her life for a while. She's going to live with the Dolan's.

I hope you like this story if you are just reading it now. It's not very good and I kinda jumped around a lot, but I wanted to make sure all the details about Hazel's life was put it :). Hope you enjoy and please don't forget to follow, vote, and comment. <3