Have you ever felt like you do something once and suddenly your best friend isnt your best friend, your "true friends" aren't your "true friends", and everyone is judging you, talking about you, making up things about you? It just gets so bad that you actually think about self harm and suicide? If you have join my club, what most people don't know is that I am 100% true to myself, my family, and my friends. Between the ages of 6-9 I was raped by my biological father, whom is not in the picture anymore, and I still suffer from the troma it gave me. My grandma yells at me constantly and tells me all the time that if it werent for my sisters, brother, and mom that I wouldn't be living in the house I'm living in now. My great grandma chases and stabs me all the time with forks, pencils, or anything she has in her hand at the time. My grandpa physically abuses me and once he even grabbed my neck and pushed me up onto one of the cabinets and held me there until my face was purple. I do self harm but Im very perky and happy all the time. Everyone talks about me, judges me, and picks on me. The people that dont understand me are the ones who I cant be friends with cause they dont trust me(which is everyone) there is a guy I like and he likes me back, well at least he use to, but I like him a lot and I thought he was over me so I also moved on. Turns out he wasnt over me and I was about to do stuff with another guy and he almost killed himself so I promised him that if he ever kills himself that I would kill myself...Thats about all I want/can say so yeah this is about me and I rather not have people feel pitty but I needed to vent and have no one I can trust to keep it so why not just put it on the web so everyone can see it. It would be the same as me telling a single person.
