Patience

The Walk.

" Aye man walk with me to the store" I tell Leo as I walk in his room
" I ain't going if you ain't buying me anything nigga" Leo says  seriously
" Bro come on I got you" I said. He got up and we started walking to the store. The corner store was a block from our house.
"So you know how I've been saving that money for my car" I told Leo
"Yea what about it?" He answers
"I have enough for my car and even more to go towards our summer road trip" I tell him
" YES, NIGGA WE ON ONE!" he yells " I thought we weren't anymore bro" 
"Nigga I been pushin all this work out here I got the money we going to San Diego" I say doing a little dougie "but I'm not driving my car we gonna take Don grandma van he said she don't use it so we might as well"
"That shit about to be fun" Leo say with a big smile on his face
"I know" I say wrapping my arm around his neck
"Man so wassup with that Sierra chick" Leo asked kicking rocks as we walked.
"She just sprung, she bad and all but I'm not tryin to cuff her" I said shaking my head
"Nigga I told you she was crazy" He said laughing,
"Man" I pushed him and he stumbled a bit."Shut the fuck up you told me to do my shit"
" I don't recall those being my words" he said with a chuckle. We started to get close to the store when a black Escalade pull up quick the passenger window rolled down slowly and revealed a light skin dude with a scar on his face, he looked at me and said "You thought we was gonna let you slide little nigga"
I was confused and before I could speak he pulled out a gun and let out five shots. I drop to the floor and the car skirts off leaving black smoke behind them. My body was in complete shock and my ears were ringing. When I started to gain myself again, I look up and see my brother laying on his back blood covering his shirt.
"FUCK!" I crawl to him as fast as I can. I pull him into my arms "Leo! Leo look at me!" I yell at him. "SOMEBODY HELP!"
He looks at me and I watch as he takes his last breath.   "LEOOO!" I yell.
I jump out my sleep sweat covering my whole body. This was the seventh time this month I've relived that day. I am trembling, I put my hands up to my head and I start crying so hard my chest starts to ache and I can't catch my breathe. I make my self calm down, I get up, and walk to Pixies room. I open the door to see her in her crib sound asleep. She's been my joy through all of this. I've broke my Mama heart, I don't even know how Pops taking it but I know I broke a part of him too. Pixie is the only one I haven't hurt, well at least while she's young. Once she's old enough to understand,I will be responsible for her heart ache also. I walk to her to crib and kiss her head " I'm sorry Pixie, I'm sorry".

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I start getting ready to go back to that shit hole they call school. I grab my backpack and a water bottle before walking out the front door and locking it. While I'm walking a black car pulls up on the side of me. My heart drops, I feel like I can't catch my breath. When I look over I see Lyric in the driver seat, I am able to breathe again.
She rolls down the passenger window "Come on, I can't just drive past you" she says with a smile
I walk up to the passenger door opens it and get in.
" Thanks, I really did not feel like walking" I say with a forced smile. I put on my seat belt and put my head against the head rest. I look over at her and her eyes are focused on me.
" No problem..... you alright though?" she asks genuinely concerned
"Yea I just had a bad dream last night wasn't able to sleep" I lied,  I wish it was a dream I wish my little brother was still here. He isn't and that's reality.