To Be, or Not To Be (ON HOLD!)

Chapter 4

The sky started to turn dark, and the clouds started moving in from the east. I let out a sigh, and walked a little bit faster to my car as it started to sprinkle. Casper was already in the passenger seat, and I let out another sigh. I unlocked the car, and slid into the drivers seat. I had to turn the keys a couple of times till it turned on. I don't have that old of a car, but it's still pretty old.

I pressed the on button for the radio way then, hopefully, Casper wouldn't try to talk to me, but nope. That didn't work. "I know that your still upset, Kai, but I th-"

"Shut up. Let me just enjoy the music." I said, and he stopped talking. Why did I have to live so far from school? Why couldn't we have lived around everyone else, and not in the country side of Utah? The song changed to Call Me Maybe, and I scrunched up my nose. "Ew." 

Casper chuckled under his breath at my comment, and then continued to stare out the window. The rain picked up in speed, and, thankfully, drowned out the sound of that God awful noise that people call music now. I spead up, and the rain came crashing down harder. Great... 

I sqiunted, cranned my neck, everything that I could do, but I couldn't see farther than five feet in front of me. So, I was forced to pull over, and wait it out... with Casper... in the rain. Joy.

I pulled over to the side of the little back road that we where driving on, and turned off the car. There was no use for the radio, as we couldn't hear it over the pouring rain. I slumpped down in my chair, and groaned. I could feel Casper's eyes on me, but I didn't dare look at him. "Did you know, that God make rain, from when he's sad and then cries?" Casper was trying to make thing less awkward, I guess, but that only made everything more awkward.

"I was told that when I was a child, but I never believed in that shit." I, almosted, growled. I've never wanted to talk about God or anything like that after my dad... died. "I never have and never will." 

It sounded like he sighed, and he turned to look at me. "Kai... why are you so mad at me? I did nothing to you that would hurt you." I looked at him, with fire in my one blue and one green eye.

"You did nothing!? Of course you did! I was perfectly fine before you descide to show up! But of course, you decided to show up and cause my life to go to hell! So, you know what?! Thank you! Thank you, for making my life a living hell! So, thank you, Casper! Thank you fo that!" I threw my hands up, and then looked back out the window. Casper made some type of noise, but didn't say anything for a long time. Finally, though, he did speak up. 

"I didn't want to come here, and babysit you! I have better things to do myself, but I was forced to come here and be you nanny! I could be with my girlfriend right now, in heaven, sipping on sometype of drink, having a great time, but no! I'm down here in this beat up, ratty car, listening to you bitching and complaining about how you don't want me here! I wish that I didn't have to be here either! But I suck it up! I tried being nice to you, but screw it! I'll tell you what I'm suppose to help you with, since I can leave when it happens!" I threw my head back at him. Locking in with his eyes. 

"You'll really tell me?" He nodded. "Tell me."

Casper paused, thinking. Probably thinking about how much trouble he would get into if he told me. Casper looked back over at me, with weary and saddness in his eyes. "Your going to die. You have no way out of it. Your going to die."

That hit me like a train. My breath caught in my throat. I mean, I knew that everyone dies at sometime, but why would someone send Casper now if I'm not dying till I'm old. "W-What?" I studdered. "W-When am I going to die!?"

Casper closed his eyes. "By three months you'll be on death's doorstep, and not in a plesant way either... I was not sent here to help you out of it... I was sent here to help your passing be as painless as possible. Your father wanted to make sure that you didn't die in pain, so he sent me to help you pass over." 

My eyes started to burn with tears. I was going to die in the matter of three months. I only had three months left to live. Then I would be gone from this Earth forever. "I'm so sorry, Kai. I really am... but this isn't in my control, it's in God's hands. And he says that you are going to die."

I'm dying, and I can't stop it.

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AHHH! I'm horrible! I know! 

~Riot Haven-St. Cloud~ <3