This was written back when Nick was dating Delta. in another One-shot (that got deleted I'm afraid) Demi went to Nick's show in broadway and they hadn't seen each other since Demi got back from treatment. Oh and they shared on hell of a kiss in the dressing room of Nick's show.
What was I supposed to do? Stay with him, keep kissing him indulging myself in a pleasure that’s not mine, I felt like I was stabbing Delta in the back, not that I knew her or particularly cared about her feelings all that much but still it’s not right. I know I would be hurt if my boyfriend was kissing another girl, said girl also happens to be his best friend and his brother’s ex!!
I guess I did the only thing I know what to do, I walked away.
***** February 13th 2012, 11:40 PM*****
February….nice month, good weather not so cold not so hot, early in the year so the whole feeling of freshness of a new year is still lingering. Yeah totally good time of the year, besides spring approaches meaning new, lighter and bright clothes that effectively lift the spirits are in order. One issue about February though.
Valentine’s Day
I am not being bitter, trust me I am happy I am single I am focusing on getting better and healthier for my music and my fans, you know figuring out what’s next. Besides it’s a hell of a lot more difficult having to try to figure someone out when you are still searching for yourself among the mess that’s your life. It would help if that person knew me, the ins and outs of my soul, what makes me tick. But no one knows me that well, except…
Now thinking about these things will only bring you down , he’s not yours you can’t keep thinking like that, even though he did break up with her–according to the gossip sites- but hey. That doesn’t mean he can’t stop thinking about you or that he left her for you, I mean you haven’t even heard from him since that time you visited his show….
A shiver passes through my body and a familiar warmth courses through my veins, warmth associated with him and his touch. Taking a deep breath I focused on watching the stars out my window. Thinking about him especially that time of year makes me think of our special place, it’s this hill side on the outskirts of LA that we used to go to with each other only talk about nothing or write songs or even sit in silence just enjoying the breeze the quiet and the starry sky of California..
And each other
I put on some clothes and did my hair in a loose bun a touch of light make up because I feel like it. I took a once over in the full length mirror, grabbed my keys and phone and headed for the Starry skies
*****February 13th 11:53 PM*****
Patting my pocket- for the third time in 6 minutes and feeling the lump in my pocket, taking a quick look at myself in the mirror.
Speeding down the road hoping she’d be there, it was pure gut feeling that I am following here, taking a huge chance but I also know deep down that I am doing the right thing, possibly the best thing for my life, I am also positive that’s she’d be on the same page as mine.
When I say positive I mean about 47.6%
Reaching my destination I pull over and make my way up the average hight hill, taking deep breaths from the anticipation, God I hope she’s there. I halt in my motion in order to catch my breath, not from walking but from the sight before my eyes.
Demi
She looks gorgeous, nothing but a simple casual wear, but that faraway look that I know she’s wearing even though she’s not looking directly at me but her ivory skin is illuminated even more than normal by the moon and the city lights. Noticing the motion of her locks-now blond- that broke free from the bun falling over the exposed skin of her delicate shoulder, slowly teasing her naked skin feeling illogically yet truly jealous of those locks that get to touch her when every muscle in my body longs for it.
