My Love That Is Forever (EXO FF)

13: The Sickness Unto You

"And when I couldn't find her anywhere, I left", Kyungsoo ended recalling the events of his date with Seungwan, to his friends the next day.

He had been unable to sleep last night, thinking about the day's events, wondering if Seungwan was okay. He'd looked for her in the area around the restaurant before leaving, but he couldn't find her anywhere. He kept thinking about how suddenly she had gotten up to go, and how she didn't even look at him when he offered to drop her. And it made worry rise in him like bile. When his mother asked him about it on his return, he lied that the date went great, unable to tell her about his discourteous behavior. He didn't even know why those words left his mouth, and the fact that a part of him was actually scared about Seungwan telling on him, made him feel guilty like nothing else. I'm such a selfish coward, he wanted to pull his hair out. When he had at last slept, his dreams had been of Seungwan, cold and alone, soaking out in the rain and his head was filled with apologies when he woke up in the morning.

"Well that was a little...harsh", Chanyeol gave his opinion. They had all gathered in the café some time before classes started, at Kyungsoo's request. "You should have at least treated her to lunch"

"I know right!", Kyungsoo groaned. "What do I do now?"

"Just accept the feelings you have for her, and confess!", Junmyeon urged him.

"What-what feelings?", He asked, looking away. They all groaned in response and he got defensive. "I mean I can't! I have other things to focus on right now, I can't add another complication to my life!"

"Why do you keep thinking that having a relationship will somehow prevent you from achieving your goals?", Jongdae asked exasperatedly.

"Won't it?"

"No!" Jongdae stated. "You're actually getting more distracted trying to fight the feelings you have for her!"

"I agree with him", Minseok chimed in.

"D.O., what you're doing is not gonna help you get over her", Baekhyun jumped into the conversation. "See, the more you run away from her, the more attracted you'll feel".

Kyungsoo agreed that he had a point. "So what should I do?"

"Date her! All these feelings you think you have for her, will go away in a week and you'll get tired of her. Trust me!"

Kyungsoo sighed. "I am not like you, Baekhyun"

"Yeah, stop giving him wrong ideas", Junmyeon scowled at him.

"Suit yourself" Baekhyun shrugged. "I was only giving you advice from the extensive experience I have in this department." He winked at Kyungsoo.

But what if he's right? Kyungsoo couldn't help thinking.

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Taeyeon was passing by the café on her way to class, when she saw Kyungsoo and the rest of their gang sitting there. She remembered how she'd left Seungwan at the house that morning and felt a spike of anger. Her cousin was burning with fever while the knuckle-heads were having gang meetings.

She walked over slowly to their table. Be civil.

"Taeyeon sun-bae, hello!", Chanyeol got up from his seat as she reached near their table, the rest of them becoming solemn on her arrival too. She nodded at him and the others, as they all greeted her.

"Hi Taeyeon! Missed me?", Baekhyun's annoying voice spoke up and she gritted her teeth to prevent herself from lashing out.

"Is Seungwan shii not here with you today?", Kyungsoo asked in concern and she turned to him from glowering at Baekhyun.