Anxiety + love

part 2

warning: this involves cutting and abuse.

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here I again. debating life choices, why am I even alive?

I slowly stood up wiping my eyes clean with my sleaves, walking over to my desk draw and opening it.  grapping a small blade that was hide under some books i had stored in there. my eyes started to sting again, letting out stobbes of tears. Taking a deep breath in I silent my tear to a hult. I placed the blade softly on my skin grazing it a little, again trying to hold back any tear that were trying to let go. Putting pressure on the blade I pulled it down letting drips of blood pour out, hiccuping as the blade leave my now bloody skin. Blood poured out of my fresh cut dripping onto the floor slowly as I finally let me tears seep through. I did it again not feeling at pain, then another time. I stopped crying at that point still not being able to see since the tears glosses over my eyes.
*ding*
My phone vibrated, I walked closer to my phone one the bed.
'One new message'
I read. Unknown number huh? Maybe it's just from a scammer?...
I placed my thumb over the home button dried blood covering my hands slightly.
I clicked on the 'messages' bubble on the bottom of my screen slowly, clicking on the number I read the message it read:
07899654217: 'hey, i know we haven't been it touch for about 6 years but I finally found you, please come back home me and your sisters miss you dearly. - love from mum. Xx'
My mum huh haven't seen her for a long time but how do I know it's her? I didn't want to answer but I also had a gut feeling it was her. But apparently I have younger sister now crazy how life can change when your not even there.
I decided to message her back what harm could it do anyways, my dad and stepmum don't care about me anyways I could use a break from everyone. WAIT! I totally forgot have two best friends down there!
Me: ' hey mum, has it really been that long since we last spoke? Wow such a long time! I will come visit you but don't tell dad also I now have little sister? See you soon- lily xx'
Time to pack-
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And hour and a half later-
Finally finished packing. My dad and stepmum aren't home at this point in time so I have time to get out and take the train. I carefully lift up my beds mattress and pull out a small wooden box with glitter glue swirls and tiny jems. I remember doing this when I was little, my parents were so happy and so were my older sisters. I miss the old days, I started smiling to myself thinking about the old times. I quickly snap out of when I remember what I was doing. Flipping open the boxes latch with one swing in the rusty latch. I pull out the contents; 5 £10 notes 1 £5 note and about 10 £1 coins. Yes for me this is a lot of money but it's not all mine I mostly steal it from my step mum since she has loads of it anyways she not going to miss it. Shoving it in my back pokey I pick up my small backpack and my suitcase and start leaking down the stairs, I haven't got a lot of belonging just a few clothes and stuff but that enough for me. Crouching on the floor a call my dog over before I leave 'ted' I called but he never came running. 'Ted' I called again and he came running out from sleeping in the sofa ever so quietly. I quickly give him kiss on his head rubbing under his chin a little. Whispering to us both 'goodbye ted I probably won't see you again'. I stood up wiping tears from my eyes and frappes the  handle to my suitcase dragging is slowly out to the front porch.

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Lily has finally left home how will her step mum and dad reacted to that?