Wishes and Hope

Wishes and Love

I always wished for true love, like they do in fairy tales. A happy ending and be happy forever. I had found it, but what really happen was that she cheated on me with my best friend. Myself still a hopeless romantic kept my heart open for new love to come, but more deceptions came with the waiting. Finally I change my way of thinking and accepted that I like boys too. Here is where my sexual orientation comes trough. I decided I was Bisexual. I like both men and woman. When I did this I fall for a guy. He was perfect for me, he like making me smile, he joke around with me and had fun. But one day he told me he had one dream of his future and I was not in it with him. That was my first heartbreak with a guy. Then the one that followed him didn't like to check on me or even talk to me and that was the very first time I was the one to end a relationship. Then another boy came along, he was lovely, we had many things in common. I saved him from suicide and we got together, but he was a Christian. I am too, just because I like boys and its a sin it doesn't mean I dont believe in God.  I do believe in him, but my boyfriend got too extreme and ended our relationship, cause "he made some changes in his life and I wasn't included in them". That was the last time i would fall in love I'd said. But unfortunately we dont control that. I fell for this guy who was nice, great family, had a great humility and good sense of humour. We were together for a long time. But after one of my dates, I was in one of my friends sweet sixteen. When I received a text message of him telling me we were gonna break up and that caught me without a warning. I always thought we were great and happy. He didn't want to tell me why we were gonna break up. When he finally couldn't handle me nagging him anymore, he told me. He said that he never loved me and that he just wanted to fool himself with me cause I was a good guy and he wanted that happiness. But he couldn't hold it anymore and fool me any longer. I always wished for true loved, but that was the last time I would let myself get fool.