Hannie

Is this the end of us

Annie: I wake up feeling sad not knowing why I go downstairs to see my mother making food like usual I go to the counter and turn on the vlog tell them good morning then I shut it off I woke up back to my room check my Instagram and I felt weird not like my usual so I thought it was just me and just being me so go take a shower get out of the shower get dressed normal day I go downstairs and sit on the couch and do some homework my mom suggested I do something I don't want to do anything which is not normal of me I go down to the gym and work out for a couple minutes and I feel nauseous and scared and lonely and you remind me in the morning so I go up the stairs tell her I have a massive headache and she gives me some medicine I kind of feel better but not really she asked me if I can go check the mail I said yeah why not and nothing better to do I go down the stairs with the keys in my hands can I unlock my mailbox I see a pink envelope with my name on it was weird never got mail before just about school and stuff like that Irish up the stairs and tell my mom about the mail I got she says from a pageant the one you entered a couple years back she opened it and she read it I got accepted to go to the academy was fully paid for and if I were to win the overall pageant I will be making a lot of money for my family and for myself I didn't want to go first because I thought of all the reasons that were holding me back I can't get in my life before acting everything I ever wanted but then I thought to myself maybe this is something new that I could try I want to see if I could go a little bit early Just so I could see what it's like just to see the people it turns out they have a showing tomorrow the whole academy and how it works told my mom I wanted to go just to see it first I Rush upstairs go on my phone and texted ask him what he's doing it's not doing anything really so don't know about the academy so far away was it I realized I was in LA right now and I realized it was in New York not in LA don't know how much time are you spending with Hayden the rest of the day went by slow came to the end of the day I fell asleep my mom I can hear it talking it woke me up and I realized it was 3:30 a.m. she's talking in the phone to my father about the academy and have to think it would be great for me but how I might just be giving up everything else I don't think I'm ready for that but I kind of also really want to Go fell asleep in 2 hours later my mom comes in rushing in to make Mom have to go get ready I get ready and my normal okay outfit we got in the car just a few minutes later we're on the flight there I so nervous but once we arrived and got the hotel settles everything done we ready to go for the tour I got there in a mediately made a friend name was lily I took the tour everything seemed nice everyone seemed nice realize it's an all-girl academy though never really missing after that we went to the hotel got some rest and then we woke up right now I need to go back home when I walked in the door I saw my family gathered around to surprise me when I get home and I looked around and I saw him Hayden he looked really sad and scared I told him I need to talk to him I told my parents that me and Hayden were going on a walk I didn't even care that it was raining at all Hayden grabbed his leather jacket and I grabbed my light pink one we walked outside he looked at me and noticed I was wearing the golden lock it he gave me when we first met he smiled at the sight of it around my neck he grabbed my hand and we slowly walk down the street he asked me what I was going to do I didn't know I stopped and went under a stoplight and told him no matter what happened I will always love you he looked at me even more worried he said is this the end of us I don't want it to be he said as tears  formed in his eyes I looked at him and put my hand on his face I don't want this to be the end of us either but I think I have to go to this academy it would be good for me and it could maybe start a career something I could do that I actually want to do not something my parents want to force me I don't  want to be something I'm not anymore I hope you understand just know I still love you and I always will Hayden let a tear escape his eye, me and him where soaked from the rain but that didn't stop either of us he leaned in and we kissed more passionate then we ever have I let go of his hand he walked one way and I walked the other I was crying when I got home I took off my jacket hung it up and discarded everyone and went to the room and started to cry even harder I texted him that night telling him I was sorry but I have to go just never forget me he typed back quickly I could never forget the love of my life I will see you in a couple of years I guess it will only be two years I hope you'll wait but I understand if you don't bye I closed my phone and sobbed myself to sleep I woke up the next day in a rush I packed all day that day did a little bit of homework getting ready for the next day the day that I leave on a plane I'm scared but I know I should be able to do it I've already heartbroken can't really lose that much anymore already lost most of it but I'm okay I'm surviving for now....

Sorry I haven't been active do you guys like It better this way or should I go back to the way it was comment you and we're