So alot of shit happens in life and tbh, I'm writing it down from now on, so let's make it so u guys know wtf has happened up until now.
I moved away from my mam from Wales and moved in with my nan in England.
Since then I've lose friends I didn't want to and been through some shit that just repeats itself over and over.
Now let's get to now, if you wanna know about before now just say and I'll make chapters about it.
Ok so I'll lost my two big brother, not biological, but two of my friends that I trusted most and it was my fault.
So Saturday the 30th of March I did something stupid, I over reacted alot which caused them to leave.
So I'm gonna give these guys fake names so that it's easier, we got Ace(no.1) and we got Link(no.2).
So that day I wasn't happy at all, I was already pissed off and upset from what had happened (if u wanna know just ask and again I'll make a chapter of it) so I go to Ace to talk cus like he's probably the best to talk to, and so like when I texted him, he sent me a pic of Link which always pisses me off cus all I want to do is talk and he sends me a pic of Link like ffs he always does it. I lose my fucking marbles cus I was already in a bad mood and that just made it so much more, yeah it was something small but seriously I couldn't fucking calm down. So I say to him to leave me alone for a bit like idk few hours maybe? And I know he would spam me on literally everything so I just unfriend him to tell him to go away for a bit. I then realised that doing that he would go to Link and so I go to him first and say again to leave me alone for a bit so I can calm down, now he starts spamming me, that just pisses me off into fucking infinity so I unfriend him too.
Few minutes later I get a text off Link saying that i blocked him, i didnt I unfriended him but he wouldn't beleive me and says I "betrayed my big brother" that makes me upset because i really didn't mean to make it all worse, yes I know, i fucked up but like they both block me on everything so I can't even say I'm sorry, i cant apologise, i cant get my big brothers back.
I care about them both so much tbh I thought that doing this will help me but no, it didnt, idk what to do.
I care about them both so much and i feel so shitty about, well, doing that, I made a stupid mistake and so it cost me my brothers. I cant stop thinking about it, i know it sounds stupid but I need them back, I need them back.
I will do anything to just have them back.
Yeah it's stupid but whatever it's truth and well I wish i didnt do it.
Ik no one will read this but like it's just easier to record things down and idk ig get advice? But it dont matter, I wanna turn back time I wanna change what I did.
Guys I wrote this in class so ya know it was quick but well I gotta go. I'll update this when I need to.
If u got this far thank you for reading and again wanna know more? Just comment and I'll make a chapter about it.
