Just Say You Wont Let Go ( Bakugo x Suicidal Deku)

Chapter 2 Mother's gone for a week

After that day I had gone home still thinking about how I got praised for the first time in my life. It felt good to know that people liked me and what I did, but horrible at the fact that it was  a first for me. I had never gotten praise ever like today. As I walked home stopping between streets, crossing paths with people and of course crossing my old middle school. I got to my apartment and went inside. As I walked all those steps upstairs I got inside and yelled " Hi mom I'm home!" and there was no reply. I looked at the counter and saw a piece of paper. I picked it up an read the words on the parchment out loud to myself. It read:

Hi honey!!

Its mom, I will be gone on a business trip for a while. Just a week my little Izu. Now be careful! I have left about $250 on the table for you to eat and sudden outbursts like emergencies. I trust you are old enough to take good care of yourself. Know that mommy loves you and that she will be back next Sunday! Take care and love you 

Mom <3

Well I guess that's that. As such I grab the money and leave it in a drawer. I go to the dinner table and place down my homework. "okay, lets see here, Math, Science and Social studies..... How wonderful." I continue to finish my homework which takes about 2 hours. As I get up and stretch I walk to the refrigerator and grab a Cola and sit on the couch and relax as I look towards  the ceiling give my self a big slap in the face because the whole time during homework I was so uncomfortable and I couldn't figure out why. Its because I was still in my uniform from school. I got up and walked to my room. I opened my drawers and got out a all might T- shirt and some blue gym shorts I still fit into. I went to the bathroom and got changed. I looked towards the basket on top of the toilet. I reached out and grabbed it. But as I did I hesitated. I grasped the object in my hand so swiftly and sternly. But I shook my head and said really no one will ever care if i did. Everyone wouldn't even care if i died. I almost did until when I dropped the object and ran to the sink and turned on the water.

I had done it. A big cut on my wrist appeared with red dots engulfing the wound in pain. The red kept on appearing with an metal like smell. The red soon stopped as I bandaged the wound before me. But as I did I ran into a phone call. I checked the caller I.D. and it had on it Electro boy!! So I answered the call and the phone call went on something like this

M=Midoryia

D=Denki

M=Hi Denki!

D=Hey Midoryia-kun

M=Whatsup?

D= Um.... I just wanted to ask... Uhhh about the poem you wrote earlier today?

M=yeahhhh? what about it?

D= I'm sorry if this is personal but...... a-are you okay?

M= yeah why do you ask?

D= well um Me, Mina, Kirishima and Sero were hanging out earlier today and Sero brought up the poems and we kind of judged everyone's that we could remember and we remembered yours and were thinking if you were all right because it was kind of ..... deep

M= oh its um nothing really it was all in the past

D= what do you mean?

M= W-well by past I mean by my bullying stories because I was quirkless, You see I'm a late bloomer

D= o-oh because we were just worried about you you know

M=Awww its good to know people care about me

D=*slight chuckle* okay Midoryia my dude I gotta go

M=Okay Kaminari-kun bye

D= Bye

*Call Ends*

Well that was slightly awkward. But its still nice to see they care about me. I gave a little smile until I looked down and saw a big red puddle on my floor. I look at the bandage and saw how it fell out. I ran to the bathroom again to clean of the blood. I looked down again only to see black spots clearing my way. I had fainted from blood loss.

I woke up on the bathroom floor with blood and water all over the floor and me. I had gotten up and changed my shirt. I then suddenly heard a ding sound come from my phone. I checked the messages. I-it was f-from Kacchan. While that was a surprise to me I had checked the messages reading " Why the fuck would you make a poem about me shitty nerd?" 

"The fuck you trying to do make me look bad?"

"What the fuck was that poem about earlier today about!"

"Whatever shitty nerd let me skip to the point"

"The old hag had told me to go visit you while your mom was out." 

"So I'm coming over rn."

"Be ready in 3 minutes shitty nerd"

"Get ready shitty nerd"

'Oh no' was all I could think to myself. I had to clean up and fast. I had cleaned my room, living room and bathroom and then I heard the doorbell ring I ran towards the door and then I saw it. The pool of blood. I felt nauseous for a second. I then heard "Deku, shitty nerd? open the door!" and I heard 3 bangs on the door. " U-ummm J-JUST A SECOND!" I screamed out as I ran to grab a towel and quickly cleaned up the floor. I then saw a little stain so I quickly ran to grab cleaning substance and sprayed it everywhere. Whipped it up and then heard then loudest bangs ever followed by " OPEN THE DOOR SHITTY NERD!!" I got so scared so I ran towards the laundry room and threw the towel in the laundry shoot then ran towards the door and opened it for him "H-hi Kacch-""WHAT TOOK YOU SO LONG SHITTY NERD IV'E BEEN WAITING FOREVER!!" He gripped my wrist tightly and I sort of quivered at the scar being touched. He kind of pulled me and said "Don't make me wait that long next time okay shitty nerd." I nodded in a response and so he wouldn't hurt me. 

I then proceeded to ask "So Kacchan w-why are you here again?" "Old hag told me to come visit since your mom was on a business trip." He then proceeded to walk over to the couch and sit on it. "Tch, been so long since I been here." "Y-yeah" As I proceeded to rub the back of my head. "Hey Kacchan how long are you staying here for?" "hmm, probably until 8:10 since I sleep at 8:30" "Hm so like 3 hours huh!" "Yeah well I starving." He looked back at me and said "Hey shitty nerd what do you have to eat?!" "well we have ramen, frozen pizza, fruits, chips and I think egg." Katsuki stood up and asked " Where do you have your ramen?" Holding his hand out for the pack I reach for it and give it to him. With a confused look I ask your not going to cook are you?" "of course I am! I'm not going to let you cook for me it's my meal." I was confused but happy I never Kacchan would say something like that. I thought he would make me cook for him. " Are you sure Kacchan? I mean like you are the guest!" "No, no It's fine shitty nerd. Just make sure you get your ass over here on time to get your own bowl before it gets cold." I thanked him and he gave me a "tch". 

When he finished the ramen he called me and we sat at the table and ate. I couldn't eat it was to hard to for me. I just felt like I didn't deserve to. "Why the fuck aren't you eating shitty nerd?" His voice made me jump slightly I responded with a " I-I kind of feel nauseous." He gave me a look and said "whatever at least try eating." " I actually need to go to the bathroom I'll be right back!"  I quickly got up and walked my way over to the bathroom. I used the bathroom and while washing my hands and drying my hands I look and saw the razor it was sitting there. I was lost in my thoughts about how useless I was and how I didn't matter. I quickly grabbed the razor and then I was placing it right next to my wrist I started cutting all over and there was so much blood and then I heard a big bang on the door "WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING IN THERE DEKU!" even though he was behind the door it was still terrifying. When I jumped to the sound I cut way deeper than usual. Blood starting pouring more and more I rewashed my hands and started to see the same black dots covering my vision. All of a sudden Kacchan broke down the door "What the fuck is taking so lon- Deku DEKU ARE YOU OKAY?" I saw him run up to me and hug me. He then tried to look for gauze and then I fell on the floor knocked out once again from blood loss