MY SOMETHING BORROWED, BLUE AND NEW

THOUGHTS

TINGS ABOUT LOVE AND FEELINGS BEFORE I START x

I think part of the reason why we hold onto somethings so tight is because we fear something so great won't happen twice. This is attachment and it is a heartbreaker.

I was so into this girl. She had no idea. It's one of those feeling where you know that she doesn't know how much she means to you, so therefore she thinks you don't care about her. It's makes me so sad and angry. I can't have the one person I desperately want.

I just want to hold her in my arms and never let go, I want her to come to me when she is cold. I want to be the one to give her my jacket when it's cold. Give her soup when she is sick. Pay for her food even when she can afford it. I want to be the one who she runs to for safety. Kiss her at special places that makes people cringe cause it's to cute. I want to make her feel so much pleasure and lust, as much as I can give rather than to receive.

I only want someone who can know I'm doing my best and doing what for who I love, or want to love. It's so hard to find the one person who makes you have butterflies in your stomach every time they message you. When you see their name on your phone your whole day lights up. As people say in the movies "the Skye becomes bluer and the grass becomes greener". All I want is just to have one person who makes me remember that I also love myself.

Anyway, since slowly falling for her stuff happened that fucked me up and sent me to full heartbreak and frustration for no reason.

I saw her with another boy
True definition of heartbreak is seeing someone you care about with someone else.

But quite recently I got a little bit drunk, yes with all my mates. I am that person that calls people who I have beef with and try to sort it out over the phone WHILST I am very tipsy. But instead of calling someone I had beef with I called the girl....

11pm and night and luckily she answered. Basically I told her it sucks that you are with him and not me. She says, I knowwww".

Basically it was a full 25minute conversation of me bleeding out my heart so that I could move on, because there was no way I'd be able to do it sober. I always hate making myself feel vulnerable to others because I want to be the person people look up to and get advice from and just be a strong person!

Anyway, we are so alike she said, "Corey! I've never seen you this vulnerable before". Those words made me realise it's ok to be vulnerable even though I hate it, what can you do.

That's pretty much it

Enjoy the book and catch feelings for them ❤️
Love and caring and kindness and selflessness are qualities people want, work on it, the characters are gonna show these.