Unforeseen (Cash)

The kiss

Cameron's POV

Nash and I were both leaning in to kiss each other, I could feel Nash's warm breath hitting my lips gently. I moved the last little bit of the way in and I felt Nash's warm lips pushing gently against mine. Nash ran his hand through my hair and I gently placed my hand on the back of his neck. Nash pushed me gently towards his bedroom and gently sat me down on his bed. He sat beside me, still kissing me and stroking my hair. I put both of my hands around his waist and pulled his torso closer to me. The kiss intensified and Nash ran his tongue along my bottom lip. I was about to give him entrance when the door to the dorm opened. I pushed Nash away from me and he stood up quickly. Taylor came through the door with Matt and Carter and they looked straight at us.

'Everything ok in here?' Matt asked as he came through the door to the room Nash and I were sat in

'Everythings fine, Cameron and I were just having a chat.' Nash exclaimed and Matt just smiled. Taylor and Carter went off into their own room and Matt went into the kitchen. Nash stood by the door and shut it before turning to face me and running his own hand through his hair. He puffed his cheeks out as he did it.

'That can't happen again that was a mistake and I'm so sorry.' Nash said to me quickly

'Its fine, to be honest, I kind of liked it.' I said honestly

'Wait, what?'

'Im gay Nash.' I exclaimed and Nash's jaw dropped

'I had no idea.'

'I thought it was obvious and I thought you knew. I mean, I know you're gay.'

'You don't know anything.' Nash spat out his words and turned away from me. The room suddenly went very cold and Nash became very dry. I was unsure of what to say.

'Im sorry,' I said and Nash just shrugged his shoulders.

'You know nothing about me Cameron, you don't know my story.' Nash said. I stood up and walked over to him. I stood in front of him and made his eyes meet mine.

'Maybe I want to know your story,' I said and I pulled Nash back over to his bed and sat down. Nash sat back beside me and let out a huge sigh before he reached over and took hold of one of my hands. I looked into his eyes and he looked into mine,

'I always knew I was different to the other boys, they'd all want to play baseball, football or whatever. I just wanted to sit and read magazines. Fashion magazines took my eye the most. Then the boys hit puberty, as did I and they all started dating girls and doing things with girls. My best friend of the time, Mark, he tried to make me do stuff with the girls, so I tried to for a time, I even used a packet of mints as a boner once, only in my trousers so that a girl thought she turned me on. That was when I realised I didn't find girls attractive. Then there was a huge party happening and I went along with mark. He spent most of his time with his girlfriend Tina. They went upstairs and I stayed downstairs with the other jocks, then I looked over the room and saw this geeky guy. He was really similar to you actually, he was called Keegan. He came over to speak to me at some point during the party and then we drank a lot and I remember kissing him. Then I remember loads of fireworks. Then I realised that I was attracted to guys, I kept it a secret from everyone until about three months ago. Then I told my mom and she told me to get out. I had to leave all my family. My little brother and sister have no idea why I left. They think I chose to. When I was still at home, before I came here, my dad would beat me. He hit me lots of times, around the face. Even broke some of my bones. In some ways I was lucky for getting away but I wish that I didn't tell anyone that I was gay.' Nash stuttered. I looked at him and he looked like he was about to cry, I pulled him close to me and let him cry into my shoulder.

'Nash it's ok. I'm not going to hurt you.' I said and I rubbed his back

'Ill never get close enough to you for you to hurt me Cameron. I don't trust people anymore.'

'Maybe I can make you trust me.'

'Maybe you can but it doesn't mean I'll let you try it.'

'Nash please.'

'Please what? My life is a mess. My family don't want anything to do with me. My brother and sister will hate me for leaving them. I am keeping it secret here a bit that I am gay, it was a big move tell the guys I share a room with. What if they hated me? Cameron I can't trust people and I'm a mess.'

'But I love you.' I didn't realise what I had said until after I said it. Nash pulled away from me quickly and stood up. He opened the door to the bedroom and the door to the dorm.

'I think you should leave no Cameron.' Nash said to me, he looked at the floor. I stood up embarrassed and walked quickly out of the room. Nash shut the door behind me and I stopped walking, I took a deep breath in and a deep breath out. I sat on the floor in the corridor before deciding to go back up to the party. I found Jack and Jack messing around with two girls and Shawn was stood talking to a guy called Sam. I went over to the drinks table before having my arm grabbed by one of the football team.

'Where did you dash off to?' He asked

'Had to take care of something.'

'Or someone. What's the deal with you and this Nash kid?'

'Theres no deal. We're just friends, I don't even know if we're that to be honest.'

'Whatever, have a good evening.' He said before walking off, leaving me to think about what I had just said.

Nashs POV

After Cameron had left I went back into my room and shut the door. I turned off all the lights and listened to my music. Matt came in the room a few minutes later and took one look at me before leaving again. I turned down my music slightly and I could hear him talking to Carter and Taylor.

'Something happened before we got home and it got worse, I don't want to ask what's wrong, can one of you?' I heard Matt ask

'I would but we haven't really spoken much.' That was Taylor, and that was also a lie, we had spoken a lot. I turned the music back up when all three of the boys came into the room and turned the light on.

'Nash what's wrong?' Carter asked

'Just thinking about how shit my life is.'

'Its not shit Nash, people love you.' Taylor said, which just made my mood worse, people loved me, but I didn't love them. Did I?

(Hi guys sorry I took so long to update, I've been super busy. I hope you liked this update, please vote or comment if you liked it, you guys are so helpful when you do.

Love you all

Anna xxxxx)