ERUKA.
"Ruka please...I can't live without you, I love you, whatever happens in the past please don't count it against me because I wasn't on my right senses, I can't hurt you Intentionally, and no man can love you the way I do....
I kept looking at him, this time he was on his feet but was still putting on a pity face, like he wanted to cry, I can't deny the fact that I was deeply move by his words and tears, something in me wanted to believe him but something scares me, Bazil had never acted so remorseful before, but I won't accept him even though deep down all I wanted to do was to jump into his arm because I have really missed him, but Bazil hurt me deeply, he slapped me twice so hard that I almost fainted, my vision was blurred after the slap, he insulted me and called me names, even the lady with him said I was their "mumu button" which I think she literally means I'm their fool, I watch her kiss him deeply and Bazil pushed me out of his house after warning me never to show my wretched face again in his place, he warned me not to come begging because he will never accept me back but after several months he is the one kneeling, crying and pleading.
I loved him, I give him everything he ask of me, even if it was going to affect me I won't mind all that matters is his happiness to me, ones he is happy, I will be happy also , he has being jobless for long and has refuse to search for any work to do, Bazil lives off me, he depends on me for everything and I try not to disappoint him because I cherish him yet he treated me like a nobody, he beats me up at every slightest provocation and makes me feel unworthy of him, he will always paint it to my face that he is a graduate and I'm just a common trader who suppose to be grateful to him because he is giving me a second look.
As I stood watching him plead to me to accept him back, I went through several scenes in my mind and find out that Bazil never treated me right like Dave does, Dave cherished me, he go shopping for me, he makes me laugh so well and has never raise a hand or use an abusive word on me, such threat is not in him, despite being more educated, have money and well coordinated than Bazil, he has never used any of that against me rather he supports me, he is a senior entrepreneur, he has a great knowledge in business aside education he love business more and has built so many businesses empire all around,
I like Dave because he was there when I needed a friend after Bazil hurt me and broke up with me.
After thinking of the whole thing I found my voice to reply Bazil
"I'm still the same stupid fool you usually beat up whenever she fails to meet up with your demands, the same market lady who doesn't deserve you because you are over educated for somebody like me, the same one you cheated on and allow your girlfriend to insult me, you even kissed her right in my presence because I was just a commoner who can't do anything, you still went ahead to break up with me, warning me never to come back again now you are here, shame onto you Bazil, you thought I can't live without you, here I am, my business has grown so well since you left me, my life has taking another new turn since you left and finally I'm with my Prince Charming who cherishes me and never takes me for granted, look at me, I'm glowing, can you see me very well or do you need glasses, so with this few points of mine, Bazil, I guess is enough for you to leave my house this minute....
He looked at me as if he has never seen me before, he looked shocked that I could say all that to him, maybe because he thought his crocodile tears and his knelling down will get him back to me but I'm not fooled, yes, I ones feel something very strong for him, the feeling shakes me whenever he is mad at me, it makes my heart beat so fast, it makes me loose appetite and taste of everything and when he is happy with me I feel so happy that I feel like my heart will pump out, I will displease myself just to please him, I thought I will never be able to live without him but he created that room and gave me strength to do that, I still feel something for him but is not as strong as before, am happy with Dave, Dave is a nice man, Bazil is of my past, he is a history and I will put him right where he belong.
