You really hurt me. You know that?
do i ever cross your mind?
do i?
you cross my mind.
all the time.
every fucking day.
all I hear is "he doesn't deserve you"
sure. keep telling me that.
it changes nothing.
oh. he hurt you badly?
he hurt your feelings?
he made you question your life?
guess what? me too.
I don't give a fuck.
I dont want to hear what he did to you
it won't change my feelings.
you try.
try being unbelievably attached.
to one person.
constantly.
wishing they would text you.
wishing you crossed their mind.
wishing they wanted you.
its hard.
ya know?
I try to get over you.
try.
I try my best.
I don't know what I'm feeling.
I don't know if I want it to go away.
I'm happy.
but sad.
my mind is a mess
sure. keep sending me mixed feelings.
ill just keep telling myself
that you'll come back
even though I know youre not.
no matter how much I wish,
every star I see.
every 11:11.
every night.
every morning.
even if I wish.
I just know.
you won't be the one.
the one that I could love.
forever.
are you happy?
I hope you are.
your smile makes my day.
even if you're smiling because of someone else.
ill be happy.
as long as you're happy.
please be happy.
you know I will always be here.
I will never forget.
never forget the butterflies.
the excitement.
the random texts.
calls.
the pain.
The Memories.
its almost been two months
two months since you've been gone.
and ya know.
I fucking miss you.
but that's okay.
because as long as you're happy.
ill be happy.
And no matter what time it is.
where you are.
whatever day.
ill still answer.
your texts.
your calls.
no matter what it is.
ill listen.
If you're on the brink of tears
ill listen.
If you're wanting to run away.
ill listen.
ill help.
because I like you.
a lot.
and I'm not just gonna let you cry.
ill be here.
fuck. if you hate yourself.
or just need a shoulder to cry on.
ill run over there.
I don't care when or where I am.
ill be there.
for you.
because you mean so much to me.
but that's okay.
because I can keep dreaming.
for that day.
where you will say I love you.
even if its in my dreams.
you were my best friend
my boyfriend.
my everything.
and I'm not letting that down.
so go ahead.
make me feel like shit again.
I won't learn my lesson.
I will be there for you.
Forever.
