Broken. I sit here in this lonely space of my mind and I can't escape. After everything that I've been through, I never thought he would be the one to hurt me. I must expect the worse because if I don't, I will be let down. I need to shield myself. Isolate from all of the sorrow. I laid there in my bed, thinking. Thinking and thinking and thinking with tears filling my eyes but none coming out, and I was just too tired to push them out myself. I decided to instead get up and go for a drive.
Closing the door behind me, my keys jingle in my hands. Slamming the car door behind me I buckle myself and connect my phone to the Bluetooth. Feeling my heart hurting, I wanted to just wallow in the pain. As I scrolled through my Spotify playlist, I get a notification.
'I'm sorry'
I swipe the notification upwards as I pick a song and begin reversing out of the driveway. I look at the city lights gleaming in the night as I feel the wind crash against my face, while the music vibrated my lungs. I drive and observe my environment, still keeping my focus on the road. As I pull in the in n out drive through, the cashier's voice echos through the small red speaker. Old school fast food.
I approach the window and pay, collecting my change and the receipt. 'I shouldn't be spending money, I have to save for college' I think to myself. I shrug and drive to the next window this time around collecting my food and milkshake. I drove a little while longer to a small vacant park, with just one bench. I park my car, bring my food and sit on the bench, eating my food and taking occasional sips of my milkshake. Suddenly I hear somebody approaching me from behind, I decide to ignore it and make a plan in my head just in case somebody attacks me.
A handsome, familiar looking man comes in from around the corner and smiles at me. "May I sit?" I scoot over and nod. 'Why not' I think to myself. "Rough night?" The man asks me, eyeing the excessive amount of food that I had. I nodded and stayed silent. "My name is Jesse. You don't have to tell me anything about what happened or your name or anything about yourself, just tell me if you're going to be alright." My eyes widened. At that moment I realized just why he was so familiar looking.
I decided to remain calm. "Do you want the honest answer or a cover up answer to make you feel better" I knew what his response would be, he wanted the honest answer. But deep down nobody wants the truth. "Honest" he said. I looked at him. "Well in all honesty I'm not going to be okay. I might just stay out here all night." He sighed.
"That's exactly what I was hoping you wouldn't say," He chuckled a bit. "Although I don't know you or anything about you, you seem young. I don't want a young girl out here by herself, you know?" I smiled. "I know. I'll be okay, no one comes around here." I replied. "Oh I know. But that would make me a nobody." I giggled. "Well, you know what I meant."
He smiled at me in return. "Mind if I stay here with you? You won't even know I'm here." He said. "Okay. And by the way my name is y/n."
