PLEASE, DON'T.

Close My Eyes

-Gabriella's POV-

"Hello Jinny! I missed you a lot! Can I give you a big hug?" I said.

"What?! No way! You are so disgusting. I hate you, and I will never ever like you! So please go away from me?" She shouted and criticize me. Then, she pushed me away.

I cried. I really cried. I didnt care about the people around me.

I am a Weak demoiselle . An emotional, stressed and a quick- tempered person. Therefore, people judge me because of that personality.

I have a lot of friends. But most of them, can't accept me completely. Do you know why? It's because, Im so FINICKY.

"Gusto mo ganito! Gusto mo ganyan! Ang arte!"  I often hear that words from my close ones. It hurts too much cause' the people who I love, are the people who judged me quickly.

I have a lot of imperfections. I have a lot of scars so it makes me blemished a lot, for all the judgments I take and for all the awful words I received. I hope those individuals who judges me all the time will soon realize the good personality I have.

I am the kind of person who understands well for unliking me. People have different beliefs. They have their own opinions and decisions.  However, I still wonder, is why do they only see my flaws but not theirs?

Yes, No one is perfect but why do they need to judge me face to face? Others judge me by their action while others by words. It kills me inside. It puts me down so much.

Everynight before I sleep, A lot of tears flows down from my eyes and dries up when I woke up.

It tooks me a lot of time to realize that Im really down. As if, I jumped from a tower down to the ground which causes my death.

I became aware of my situation. I shouldn't be like this. I shouldn't be weak . I should be and I MUST be THE STRONG GIRL who couldnt be defeated by anyone ANYMORE.

"I WILL CHANGE FOR THE BETTER AND NOT FOR THE WORSE."