WHY SHOULD I LIVE? BTS YOONGI X FTM TRANS READER

Chapter 1

I decided to try and get out of bed,

 Maybe if I get up, I can forget about what will happen tonight, I thought , as I got out of my Pj's and tightly wrapped my towel over my chest slowly but surely starting to feel dysphoric

 And got into my bathroom removing the towel from my chest placing it on the washing hand basin all while trying not to look down.

I turned on the tap feeling the hot water touch my body almost clearing my mind.

I got out the soap shared by me and the guys rubbing it all over my body while simultaneously washing it off, 

Then I grabbed the shampoo and conditioner pouring it on my short Mohawk while simultaneously washing it off after which I grabbed the towel and got out of there.

I went to my wardrobe and got out all my clothes and carefully wore them 

Starting by wearing my not so newly purchased binder from underworks, I'm not that rich to buy a new one I hardly get a 3 course meal,

 I mean I don't really care but I got to eat,

Then I wore 2 panties with my packer in the 2nd one and a boxer brief because I like boxers,

Then I put on my newly gotten trouser, then my shirt then my blazer, pair of socks, then my pair of shoes and lastly my tie and I was done .

I got out of my dorm and into the main school building being greeted by side glances, mocking and stupid jocks thinking that pasting the words 'tranny' and 'fag' on my back was the best thing to do, though it doesn't hurt anymore,

 I am just wandering how I'm I a fag? when I like girls and boys and Non- Binary people.

I was late but no-one cared since I came around long break, 

I got into the classroom filled with  students, some eating ,some reading, some chatting. I got to my desk pulling out my books and stationaries from my Army Green Schoolbag and sat down. 

    As I was preparing to draw like I always do in my favorite journal, the teacher came in. 

   5 minutes later, a pale skinned skinny mint color haired boy and was he blushing?! , I thought as I stared at him.

 How his cat eyes expanded with awe, how chubby his cheeks were, how his smiling kissable lips were making a slight pout, and how his uniform fell on his body clearly showing how unhealthyly (IDK if that a word) thin he was.
    It made me a little unhappy, since I know how It feels to starve yourself.

  I CANT BELIEVE HE JUST GOT HERE AND I AM ALREADY WORRIED ABOUT HIM. (I will sue you min yoongi!)

So adorable, I thought as I blushed realising he caught me staring.

YOONGI'S POV
    I was panicking I know I shouldn't be, but after what happened in my first school I couldn't help it.
I saw the school building
WOW! it so big , I thought out loud thankfully everyone was already inside.
I got inside walking like a love sick puppy,
Could you blame me? I have never been in a school like this I was almost always home schooled.

  I accidentally bumped into a tall built boy who told me his name is Jungkook, I was excited to make a friend but I was afraid so I left him behind.   

   I finally got to the class, class 2.3 A (Idk how class naming works) and as I entered I saw a boy deeply staring at me examining me.

 
   I felt little so, SO FRICKING little, I instantly blushed which he probably saw since he also blushed,

I blushed a deeper hue staring at his (Y/sc) skin, his (y/hc) hair and his (y/ec) eyes almost getting lost in them until,
MR. MIN!,MR Y/N! The teacher shouted at me breaking my concentration .
   I was startled, my ears ached but I compiled to the call, apologizing and introducing myself to the class and I embrassingly walked to the only open seat which fortunately and unfortunately was next to him. Y/N maybe,

 I groaned whispering under my breath,

This going to be a long session. Sigh

A. N: This is bottom yoongi, top you, if you guys aren't OK with it I have another book I'm bringing soon with top yoongi.

QUESTION: what do you think about yoongi saying Y/N maybe, the person with the correct answer will get a shoutout.

But there are trigger warning, including :
Boy X boy
Angst
Violence
Mild Smut
Slurs against LGBT+ people
Some Dysphoria trigger
Mention of rape
Suicidal thoughts
Eating disorder
Anxiety
Depression
Mention of suicide.

Love you guys.

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