YOU

🎶 You give me hope,
The strength, the will to keep on;
No one else can make me feel this way
And only you
Can bring out all the best I can do;
I believe you turn the tide
And make me feel real good inside.🎶

Ever since thet I met him, he became that person who always pushes me whenever I feel I can't do some thing or I don't feel it doing. He keeps telling me 'hey! You can do it!'.  He gave me hope in everything I do. He pushes me into something that he know I can do more. Through his words, he's giving me the strength to do things . He's the one that makes me feel good mostly when something bad happen. He lighten up my life from being gloomy. He brings out the best in me that I am thankful for.

🎶You pushed me up
When I'm about to give up;
You're on my side when no one seems to listen
And if you go,
You know the tears can't help but show
You'll break this heart and tear it apart;
Then suddenly the madness 🎶

In every problem that came into my life, he was there. Cheering me up. Telling me not to give up 'cause it's just a trial that God has given to make me stronger. Well yeah, he's right. He's not just a listener but a great motivator for me. Whenever he knew I'm sad, he makes me happy just to forget the bad feeling I have. But then everything was just in the start.

🎶It's your smile,
Your face, your lips that I miss,
Those sweet little eyes that stare at me
And make me stay,
I'm with you through all the way.🎶

He changed. I changed. We changed. We came to the point of giving us up. When I was tired and ready to give up, he pulled me again into him. I just let him pull me again even if it hurts. Time comes and he got tired on me, I pulled him to me and thankfully he let me. I made myself fool begging him to stay. I throw all the pride I have just to make him stay. He did but it didn't take any longer 'cause at the end.. HE STILL GAVE UP ON ME.  HE STILL LEFT ME. HE LEFT ME NOT WORRYING ABOUT THE PROMISES WE COMMITTED. HE LEFT ME NOT KNOWING HE'S HURTING ME. HE LEFT ME ALONE. HE LEFT ME INTO BROKEN PIECES AFTER I FUCKING FIXED HIM AND TURN INTO WHOLE.

🎶Cause it's you
Who fills the emptiness in me;
It changes ev'rything, you see,
When I know I've got you with me🎶

He knew I'm tired and it will really break me if he goes but then he still did....left me. Left me broken and miserable. Left me not knowing it's really painful to be left. He left me because he just got tired on me, where the hell is the justice?! Why is it so unfair for me?!

But then, despite of all he did to me. I still miss him. His warm hug that makes me feel safe and comfortable. His silly jokes and smiles  that always making me happy. His laughs that become a sweet music to my ears.  His encouraging words that making me braver. I miss the way he is when we were just starting. I miss the man who was there through my brightest and darkest days even he didn't stay. I miss our nonsense talk, midnight talk, naughty talk, Godly talk and our sweet talk. I miss every inch of him.  His fragrance or not so good smell. His not and bad breath. His eyes. His lips. His nose. His face. His body. His whole being. I miss how he loves and cares for me. I'm still missing him despite of the pain he caused in me.  I miss the half of me.