Falling in Love with You *CNY Special*

The Moon as Witness

You know the kind of silence you get when you're up alone in the middle of the night and every one asleep. The quietness, the mind numbing silence that crept inside and leaves you shiver even in a hot summer night?

That was what Mo felt the moment the words sank into his conscious. He felt as though doused in ice water, the lust that was nearly roasting him alive, now sedated into a silent haze that lingers strongly between the two.

He stared at He Tian who also stared back at him with his eyes holding a hint of pleading behind the blunt cockiness.

It was sincere and heartfelt, he knew it from the way he spoke, the way he touched his hands and the way he looked at him. At last, his heart that had been restrained in thorns were set free. But...

He pulled his hand back, leaving He Tian with a puzzle look, still hovering above him. This whole thing wasn't about whether he loved him or not, he didn't know what love was or understand a single thing about that dumb shit.

But if he had to describe what they shared between the two, He Tian the annoyance of his life and him, he'd have no other words than this, Love.

So no, loving or not was not the problem here. It would have been fine, if they were still young, messing around in school, it'd be enough. But this was more than some teenage soap opera.

What he needed was trust. The kind of trust, that'd share between the two equals, the kind that didn't end with one leaving another without a single explanation, the kind that'd always be there even when they were apart.

A bleak laugh escaped his quivering lips and he pressed his hands down on eyes hard, making sure no tear leak through the barriers. "Move." After an eternity, he spoke lowly. He Tian's hands which were holding him up all this time shook a little but he remained in place. "What are..."

"I said move." This time his voice was clear, letting out a sigh, he glared back at him, his eyes both red. He Tian tried to say something but Mo didn't give him any space, he flung up, pushing the other person off of him.

The moonlight showered into the room, casting shadows onto the guys, hiding the emotions they hold from plain sight. The air inside the room was so still, it felt like quiet before a storm.

He Tian stood, hair unkempt, half naked with his pants buttons undone and Mo, across from him, had nothing on but his boxers, the tension was enough to make one shiver with goosebumps.

Through his slightly blurry vision, he could make out He Tian's naked body a few feet away from him. The chiseled jaw line, the lean torso, the sculpted abs and that seductive waist, he'd only think about such nauseating things toward no other man in whole wide world but only him.

It was him who barged into his perfectly barren life and destroyed it ambience. He was the one who made him wanted to accept having someone to rely on was not so bad. He was the one who broke down his walls and made him weak.

And he was the only one who took resident in his heart even though his conscious rebel the hell out of it. Does he also hold such a place in He Tian's eyes? The more he thought about it, the more the rage roar inside his chest.

"...do you think you can just erase everything with that word?" his voice was shaking a bit; he balled his fists, neither of self pity nor of sorrow, just plain fury, rising up inside him. He Tian shifted uneasy on his feet. "You think I am idiot so I'll accept anything you do and be gracious about it?"

"Little Mo, I have never thought of you like that." He Tian tired to reason, he sounded a bit desperate although it didn't show much on his face. "Honestly, I have never felt deeply for anyone other than you. It might not seem that way but..."