the reason i breathe | min yoongi

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why am i still here?

I had often wondered seeming as college was coming to an end and I'd achieved nothing. The noises of the classroom ceasing to be processed as my mind drifted elsewhere.

I'd disconnected from the world and i made that pretty clear, I wasn't planning on staying much longer so what was the point? I'm purely making sure no one will miss me when i'm gone.

"excuse me?" your voice had called.

A voice that i ignored.

poke.

"May I sit here?" Something you should never have asked.

"..sure" Something i shouldn't have answered with.

I don't know what you was thinking when you tried to befriend me, but it seemed you were the type that was up for a challenge.

I ignored you from that day, not a single word was ever uttered to you. You entered the class and always asked before taking a seat, but soon enough you learnt not to ask but to take it without wasting your breath.

"do you want to do something fun?" You asked out of the blue one day, catching me just as I stepped out the classroom.

I would've refused but skipping a lecture was always the better option, and so I followed.

We got in your car and off we went, me completely oblivious to where we was headed. I just stared at you most of the way, asking myself what made you so determined to know me, why was you with a guy who was so ignorant.

We arrived at what seemed an abandoned building, decorated in wild flowers and ivy. This girl I thought was so innocent began to spray the walls with paint.

"come on, you try" You insisted as you threw a can to me, my slow reactions making me fumble around to catch it.

I didn't want to, but I did it simply because you told me to. I don't know why. The more I did the more I began to enjoy it.

That's when you promised me, you would show me all the things that never fail to make you happy—things that made me happy too.

and so, our trips became more and more habitual.