the reason i breathe | min yoongi

breathe

why am i still here?

I had often wondered seeming as college was over and I'd still achieved nothing. The noises of the classroom fading as everyone was leaving for the last time.

It had been a long and lonely year without you here.

the seat beside me is cold and i haven't spoken to anyone in a while. I'm not going to make that mistake again, i lose everyone that ever gets close to me.

I never fail to miss out on our midnight trips together, even if we're only confined to your place in the grave, I'll enjoy every visit I make, just like i used to.

I never usually bring you flowers, but today is special.

I place the bouquet of roses upright against your tomb as tears paint my face. My numb lips quiver as i try to speak.

"It's been a year since you left."

"and i don't think i can live another day without you.."

"you asked me once, where i would like to go if i was to get away from here.."

"i didn't tell you but i wanted to be wherever you went, and i want to go with you now. It's getting lonely in this unforgiving world. I love—" My tears came following as for the first time I admitted my feelings I'd contained for so long.

"I love you, Y/n!" I yelled.

"Can you hear me?!"

"You're the only reason i have to breathe, my reason is gone!"

I pathetically hunched over as I cried out to you, not knowing whether you were ever able to hear my confessions, or whether you ever loved me too.

"I'm getting away from here, I'm coming with you." I whispered before slowly rising to take one last look at your grave.

i left. and i drove away to the place you loved most.

i stood on the edge of the rooftop, and i could almost see you standing beside me with your warm hand in mine. but now, of course, it was empty.

i stretched out my hand, comparing it to the skyscraper ahead just as you'd done once. my problems here were the size of my hand, and now i could solve it in just one move.

i wanted to talk to you again but i thought there was no point anymore,

I know i can tell you when I reach the place you have gone.

"please be waiting for me, Y/n."

and i jumped.

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