Keeping up with Meeee!

4/9/19

oof! i ad 3 mental break downs today because of my stupid emotional self :(,im sick and i literally feel like im dieing. i cried too much today. My ex keeps texting me but i like it,it makes me feel like he likes me again even tho i dont like him

i have no clue what to do no more,it feels like im loosing control of myself and i cant do anything about it

sorry for making this section sound so sad but yeah.this is what my shitty life is. 

i only have 3 friends :( 

the worst thing about it is that i always feel like they hate me,like today,socrates (one of my besties) didnt talk to me all day. and i was crying most of the time. i wanted him to help me because he my bestie but he didnt so yeah

literally the only peopple who helped me after me crying was miryam and francesca :(

i miss writing because you know i get to express my feels but i have no time,and if i write my fucking therapist has to see everyhting which is shitty because its my stuff

i know your doing your job but give me space,its not like im going to give you everything i own or like if ima open up to you in less than 5 seconds.

i HATE GOING TO THERAPY

I ABSOLUTEY HATE IT,the lady always talks about me being depressed and all of that stuff,like she doesnt have her own problems

ugh whatever

welllll

i

got

to

go

bye

luv

you

lots

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