50 Shades of Sand

Chapter 16 - Anger and Some Other Emotion

I stood in front of Gaara's powerful presence. A small part of me wanted to back down but that was just a small part. He was furious with my betrayal but I was even more furious for his interruption.

"Why did you follow me here? We were doing just fine before you distracted me!" I screamed. I wasn't sure if I was speaking more towards Gaara, or Kankuro who was standing next to his left shoulder.

"You promised-" Gaara's eyes for a minute softened on me but then suddenly hardened and bore down on me. "You disobeyed me." What was he going to say? I wanted to question his first statement but I couldn't get off topic on this.

"I can't stand back when I am a part of this mission, Gaara!" He flinched a bit when I said his name and he suddenly became cold and distant to me. Surprisingly, Kankuro has spoken a word.

"I am the Kazekage. You disobeyed me. Will a leaf kunoichi really go against another Kage of an ally? How does that look on your village?" He questioned me and I bit back a gasp. Who does he think he is? Using this whole "I'm the Kazekage" card. Fine if he doesn't want me to use his name. I can play by his rules.

"I'm sorry, Kazekage-sama, but I find your judgment on my part to be completely wrong. I am just as every bit useful, maybe even more, as Asuma." I snapped back at him. I tried to keep my face free from emotion as his. I will only allow my voice to show my emotion. He doesn't even deserve a frown from me.

"Whatever." He commented and I gasped slightly. Even Kankuro seemed to be taken back by his sudden comment. Anger grew in me. Whatever? He thinks he can use whatever on me and get away with it? Hah!

"Now who's being disrespectful?" I questioned with venom leaking with my words. "You've got some vocabulary, Kazekage-sama."

Gaara made a low growl from deep in his throat and he ran a hand through his hair as if to restrain himself.

"I'm growing restless of your disobedience." He murmured and I glared at him.

"I'm not disobedient! I just obey when I feel the want to. That has nothing to do with this!" I added and he looked at me as if I was crazy.

"None of this would have happened if you listened to me in the first place. Not only did you put yourself in danger. You convinced two of my guards to disobey me as well. Now they are in danger as well as the rest of us here. You have been very reckless and immature during your entire stay. Not a way a visitor from an ally village should be." He spoke roughly as he stared down at me. I could see Kankuro's eyes widen in the corner of my eye. The one time he speaks more than a sentence and it has to be about this.

For a minute I stared at him speechless as I figured a way to respond to that. But how do you respond to someone pointing out a big flaw of yours? He just put the whole blame on me for our entire situation and it just didn't sit well with me. So is that all he thought? That I've been immature and reckless this entire stay? I could feel tears peak in my eyes but I tried to ignore them. Why would I be crying? Usually I just punch them and go on as if I never heard it. But... hearing it from him? It hurt me and I wasn't sure why.

"I thought I could trust you to understand." I whispered harshly but I kept my head down so he could not see the tears pooling in my eyes.

"I thought I could trust you to listen to my orders." He retorted and I snapped my head at him. The tears ran down my cheeks lightly but I was angry. I was angry at how unaware he is of everything.