This diary will be here for future generations to come or for the near future, maybe the next year, maybe the next century, or--the next millenium. My name is Linda Wu. Right about now, I am 28-years-old. I feel a little tense right now. I feel like my meditation master, Dr. Yan will be judging this story. I also hear a voice saying, "loose lips sink ships." I have nowhere to write. Facebook is gone. I deleted all my Facebook friends on my second Facebook account. There are only two friends left on my WeChat account. I am using my third eye, and I see what "loose lips sink ships" mean. It means I will get in trouble with Dr. Yan, and he will be the person who will do something bad, sinking my ship. That sucks. It's just that I am so extraverted, ok? What's wrong with my extraversion? I can't even keep a diary in peace? I am currently seeking asylum right now from the organization. The energy isn't right. You know what, I just looked at the personality of the spirit who was saying, "loose lips sink ships," and this spirit actually has a snotty, spoiled, spiteful attitude, a pranking attitude towards me. I can't believe I'm attracting such a negative spirit. I accept what this spirit is saying. This spirit is repeating the phrase so many times that it sounds like an emergency. Which ship can I sink? Which ship will I sink? I feel like I will sink Dr. Yan's ship with my writing. You know, I can't help it, Dr. Yan. I just want to exercise my mind. I want to keep myself busy. I know that writing exercises the mind. I am actually listening to positive affirmation meditation music video on attracting friends. It's called "Make Friends Easily - Be More Social and Friendly | Subliminal Theta Binaural Beats Meditation." I am wondering, though, how will I sink Dr. Yan's ship? I see that if I become negative, I will sink Dr. Yan's ship. But why would I be negative? I am such a positive person!
This meditation on making friends is an hour long. I am thinking that I will stand up and stretch after that hour is up, and then come back to the meditation affirmation video again. I am planning to listen for up to 8 hours before I sleep. Sometimes I can't sleep at night. This is great.
You know why my cover for this diary is a picture of chrysanthemums? It's because chrysanthemums help you live longer. That's why my desktop on my computer and the sign-in screen both have chrysanthemums, in fact the very same picture, displayed. I have to go pee. I'll be back... I'm back. I'm kinda thirsty right now. Gotta go drink water. Pardon me... I came back from having fun talking to a family member and drinking water. It's so much fun talking to anyone. I love people.
Todays I ate: 6-8 small dates (not honey dates). It's boring writing this. So I don't want to.
Anything else on my mind? I simply stopped overthinking from talking to my family member. My mind is clear. Let me talk to him more? Should I? Let's go. I'm back! I feel great! I realize I enjoyed talking to my family member! It's exhilarating! He cheers me up!
My mood: jealous 'cause y'all read the Bible and I haven't finished the Bible.
My mood: jealous 'cause of the people having read the Bible.
Except I can't copy the Bible right now. I don't know why. Let's take a break from wanting to copy the Bible for a week. Next Thursday evening, let's see whether I want to copy the Bible.
What to do right now? I did slow breathing for a minute. Now what? I had to stop because a memory of the past woke me up. I vow to listen to this recording for 8 hours a day for 30 days. So from April 11 to May 11, I'll listen to this.
My mood: peaceful.
My nose bleeds a little bit sometimes. It won't drip down, but when I wipe my nose, blood is there. So I vow right now to be off of dates for 5 days. Next Tuesday I can have dates only if it's part of my prescription for Chinese herbs. Otherwise, I can't have dates for any other reason other than the current Chinese herbs prescription. I can't have dates for a year. I can eat dates (not honey dates but the red colored ones) April 11, 2020.
I just drank a few tablespoons of apple cider vinegar mixed with warm water. I need to wait twenty-five minutes to brush my teeth. So basically, I need to brush my teeth at 10:50 PM.
My mood: you know what, I plan to drink apple cider vinegar water every evening for 60 days. So June 11, 2019 will be the first day without apple cider vinegar. My memory sucks. Let's play Sudoku for memory on pogo.com.
