A Promise of Forever

Unexpected call

*Hanz*

"Sweety your phone's ringing I think he misses you." She utters loudly because I was inside my room organizing my stuff to become presentable and well-organized.

"Who my comely mother?" I said in a loud tone.

"Nuhhh sweety, you're making things known unknown, hahaha" She cackling in the kitchen equal to what is needed for me to hear in the next room.

"Mother, who's that? I'm asking you seriously. I'm a bit busy. You know I need to organize my higgedly-piggedly fucking room."

"Sweety I don't know too. I'm busy preparing for our lunch. But, I think it's yours...."

I haven't yet made her finish what she's trying to add I then moved my legs in a breakneck speed to reach out the call, unfortunately, my effort wasn't adequate. I entered my password and saw 15 missed calls projecting the name of my everything-Kerth.

"Mother it's Kerth. Huhuhuh you're so bad. You never told me he's the one who's calling me repeatedly." I turned to her while kinda a bit teary eyed.

"Sweety don't cry. You're not a child anymore. It's just a call u know." She teases me out of nowhere.

The situation left me exactly perplexed yet shocked. I doubted then my intuition because it says something I still struggled to figure it out what it is? Out of the blue, I just realize he never called me this way. He never. When he called me before and if I haven't answered the first attempt he knew it already I'm busy, by that, he absolutely stopped committing but today's unusual.  Again, the irregular palpation of my heart made me nervous. Is there something to be done badly? While diving in my own thought and almost drowning I received a message.

Kerth
April 9, 10:25 a.m

Babe, please see me at La Preciosa Park

Without even knowing what emotion should I limn and how my damn aura looks like, I run and forgot to bid an au revoir to my mother because there's something wrong right now.  After 2 minutes, I reached the designated place and saw him looking in a deplorable manner.

"Kerth are u okay?" I asked confusedly and he stuck for a bit of time before turning front to face me.

I indeed saw his mesmerizing eyes turned into something riddle I struggled to grasp. He's not Kerth I owned. He's quite different today. He looks pale, feeble, downcast, distress and hopeless.

"Sorry," he says poorly

I've been stuck and look him keenly trying to read what's on his mind and depicting what's really fvcking happening as of this moment however I failed. Is this Kerth? I questioned my own damn self in my own leverage. He became an asshole.

"Spill the beans Kerth" out of silliness I said this despite I'm not yet sure what to utter. But, I really need to know the fact. I merely wanted to know the fact. I'm fidgeting. My heart's beating so fast and I couldn't then calm myself bursting emotionally.

"Kerth, tell me now please" I stated whilst a bid of tears flow in a smooth way.

"Let's end this relationship"

I was left incapacitated by extreme anguish. My knees become feeble and I wept hardly like there's no tomorrow. Hearing those words for the very first time especially coming from the person whom I loved the most is kinda a bit frustrated, lifeless, and no longer being used-baneful consequences of being broken.

"Are u sure?" I bring out hopelessly

"Yes" he walks then but I hold his right hand and slapped him as hard as I could. I slapped for him to feel the pain he causes- the fresh wound he made. I slapped to awaken his consciousness that he's just making a pun. I slapped him but the reality is there he's giving up. We're not in a relationship anymore. The relationship we've built and the firmness of the foundation abruptly disappearing. Flicker-fade-gone.

"How come we came to this point Kerth? All this time I thought you were my first and last. But, I couldn't imagine you're brave to utter" let's end this relationship" thingy statement as if it's just like a piece of cake for you. I don't know if everything we've done before was a piece of crap. Do you really love me, Kerth? Huh? Do u?" I shouted while burying my face on his chest. I don't know where do I profoundly dive the boldness I've had but I knew I wasn't me.

The serendipity of the ambiance quickly altered and replaced by intense emotions where it occupied the bony scenery. Kerth faced me and I saw the hot liquids forming in his eyes and it slowly flows on his dull cheeks. He held my hands just like he's afraid to lose me. Just like we're acting on a theater and everything is just like a scrivener's imagination-in short scripted.

"Hanz, everything I've shown- the love, effort, and everything were all true. I love you more than shimmering gems. More than anybody's lives. Unfortunately, I need to choose to let u go because......." He stuttered to form another claim to say

"What? Because you found someone? Right? isn't?" I added quickly and in an unexpected moment, he kissed me. A kissed that tells genuine love. An au revoir kiss. Afterward, he hugged me tightly and gave up immediately and face me.

" Not all the times the one who surrender never loves you. He chooses your happiness albeit solitary faces him. That's love Hanz, one's not afraid to commit and sacrifice because he knows at the end his loved ones' finds a man who destined for him. I don't want to steal that fact, Hanz. Time will come you will discover the underlying traces of reason why something is done the way it is. You know what, it's hard to give up on someone whom I wanted to spend my life perpetually but, there's no way to escape just only this way. I'm not playing the game, Hanz, I just love you that's why I let you free.."

"Stop explaining Kerth. If you love me you won't do this. You won't do this. Did you hear me? YOU WON'T DO THIS TO ME.!" I angrily shouted. I don't even care if those people who pass will criticize me or not as long as I'm expressing what's inside my fucking heart I'm alright.

"You don't understand what I'm trying to portray hand."

"Then enlighten me. Fucking asshole. Holly crap motherfucker." I butted

"You're always like that. Stop acting like you're either deaf, blind or stupid. It's a long story to be told. If I have the leverage to spill the beans I wanted it to decode for you to know. You know what, It's hard for me to release you. It's hard Hanz you know? I don't know if I could still continue my state of existence without you at by my side. It's just like I'm now a withered tree hoping to be showered by miracle to bear delectable fruits. I'm just like a world without words. I'm a vapid poem possessing and having no rhymes, meters, and styles. I avoid trying to be filled again with love. Now tell me a hand, so I really like this to end?"

"If not, why not to stay?" I pinpointed immediately.

"My claims confuse you but one thing I assure you, I shall return and rewrite the story we have made. Hanz, everything ends this way."

"Keerrrrrrrrrrttthhhhhhhhhh" I hollered.

Seeing his shadow slowly disappearing made me shattered into millions of pieces. I was miserable. A pathetic lad who just tend to love and gets broken without even knowing the reason for leaving. The number of visitors at La Preciosa Park gets higher and higher. The sun's heat struck my desolate face which was abandoned and left alone. No matter how many gallons of tears I obtain the piece of information that we ended up like this is no longer fiction but non-fiction. The end is not near to come but it was over right now. I stood up and smeared the remaining dirt on my shirt and wiped out the bead of tears bravely. As if I care to those fucking deadly glares of people who were confused about what had happened to me.

I just love him the way I know. I gave everything to him but why did we come to the climax that the relationship I wish to stay for a long period of time hastily destroyed by an unknown and selfish act of humanity. I cursed you, Kerth. I loathe you fucking asshole cheater man of the year.

Out of stupidity, I valiantly took the exit way and run as fast as I could without realizing I'm on the roadway where vehicles are busy running playing with strangers and unfortunately

*booom*

Until I saw the hot liquids flowing continuously and the darkness slowly eats me.