Artificial Love (Under Editing)

Pretty Hurts

t has been a month now since me and Kim been dancing for YG and me not seeing Seungri oppa.Both of us has been so busy we barley see each other when i have no time hes busy and when he is not busy i'm busy its been good and bad the good is that me and Kim got promoted to dance for 2ne1 for their upcoming tour,the bad news is that Kim has been acting really strange she look like she hasn't been eating and like she has been crying from time to time.

Hey Kim ho.....w.I then got cut off from her leaving she looked like she was crying i can tell from her eyes her eyes were swollen red and she looked really hurt.

I then went to go follow her since practice was over but by time i could catch up with her she was already gone."Dame she is a fast walker i wonder where she could have gone cause she couldn't have gone far i then see her walking but she looked really depressed i could tell cause she was wearing sweat pants with a baggie hoddie saying "One Of A Kind"on it.

I finally caught up with her.Kim whats wrong you look like you haven't eating and you are getting skinner is Youngbae doing something bad to you?I asked her while she just gazed at the ground looking at her feet.

"April can you just stay out of my privacy for once lord you ask a million fucking questions its just annoying as hell and for your info i'm  feeling good so fuckuing good i can just die from my happiness so can you just back off or better yet don't fucking talk to me for i know that you see me as just someone that you can talk about behind there back and plus you need to worry about you and your bae if you guys are still together"!Kim yelled to me. 

She walked away from me but i can something wasn't right cause she is never like this and plus she would never yell at me never in the world.An idea strucked into my head i decided to go back to YG and see if Youngbae was in there.

I walked like i was a mad girl who was about to kill someone.

Youngbae!i called as i walked fast towards him 

"What did you do to Kim"!I yelled at him where the whole band can hear me.April what are you talking about i didn't do anything to her"O yeah why does she look like she has been crying all fucking day and she is getting thinner she looks like she hasn't ate for days.I yelled back at him while Seungri's eyes is gazing at my sweaty body.

I don't know she has been acting like this since we came back i tried talking to her but she just pushes me away and i try feeding her all she says is that she isn't hungry or that she ate already but i can tell that something has change about her.

KIMS POV

I went back to Youngbae's place to go and change into my night clothes i didn't feel like calling no one not or answering my phone i just turned it off.I felt disgusted,hated,and not loved.Ever since me and Youngbae gotten back

Flashback

i was happy cause that was the first time i ever felt that way the night i did it with him i felt like it wasn't just the love making but it was passionate love making we lasted all night until sun rise.When he left to go YG and i was getting ready i went to go check his mail i went there was so much i looke dat they had some that looked like hate mail.One read saying 

Stay away form my oppa he doesn't want some filty slut like you.

I read more more more and more this next one really scared me to the point this was really going to happen 

You nasty ass bitch why are you dating my oppa your not even pretty your just a ugly whore with no pretty looks i'm warning you if i ever you see you face to face i will kill you and your family and i do know where they stay he doesn't want you all he is doing is just using you like a rag doll so if you don't break up with him i will kill you.

                                                            From,PRETTY BITCH

I  putted down the letter and something was written on it it looked like blood.I then got scared and ran in the bathroom.I closed the door and just fell to the ground sobbing i felt like nobody doesn't wnat me to be with him but all do they do know is that i really love him i love Youmgbae with all my heart.I gotted up and looked in the mirrior.What i saw was osmeone that Youngbae loved my eyes,smile,laugh,hair.,i then looked at my skin color and to see that i wasn't possible for someone like me to be with someone like him.I hear my phone  ring i go towards it to see that its was Youngbae calling me "Yeboseyo i said into the phone".Hye babygirl i was just letting you know that i'll be on my way home actually i'm in the drive way.

I hurried up and dashed into the living room where all the hate mail was and stuffed it somehwhere he wouldn't find it.

the door open 

END OF FLASHBACK

I went to the bathroom and looked at myself really good before i was about to do something that i will never regret,I grabed the scissors and started to cut my long beautiful hair that soon will be short after i was done i then wnet into the kichen and grabe a knife i felt like i should just die i know that everyone will be happy if i just left.Before i did that i placed the note i wrote to Youngbae on the night stand saying that i loved him and to take care of my best friend.

11:00 It was time i then set down in the kitchen and looked at what i was about to do i then placed the cold blade onto my soft brown skin until blood was gushing it felt like my arm was being put under fire, i went deeper until there was blood everywhere.My eyes was getting heavy and thats when i soon passes out.I felt someone touching me and screaming my name i opened my eyes to see it was Youngbae.

Youngbae i tried to talk to him.

Don't cry just let you know that i do love you and i will never forget the happiness that you gave me just let you know that i will live you forever and always.I felt a tear dropped as I felt him through my arm around his neck while he carried me bridal style thats all i remebered until.