Chapter one
A hard sneeze quickly left me. I’ve always loathed this time of year. I didn't really hate spring because new life was slowly creeping back into this little town in Nebraska, but because ever since I could remember, the pollen had suffocated me. Well, I guess I was being a little dramatic, but you know what I mean.
Spring break had been ending, and while everyone else was devastated about it, I really didn't care. I didn't do ‘parties’ or ‘socializing’. I always did something to mess up friendships or outings with friends. So I just stayed home, but today was different. Like at least once a day in every month was.
My mom was forcing my little brother and I to go out together for "bonding", she gave me her keys and money to take him to some stupid little kid movie. He was way too old to be going to these movies. You guessed it, my mom was that over protective mother that wouldn't let her children see a movie that was rated over PG, even PG-13 was to harsh for our "little minds".
"Come on Noah, the movie starts at 6:30", I called through the open door of our modest two story home.
"I'm coming! Jeez, Sarah, sorry you have to see sunlight for once!", Noah yelled sarcastically back to me. Now this is why I was always short tempered with him. He was as bad as a fourteen year old brother could get. He was gross, annoying, immature, and worst of all, sarcastic. I hated sarcasm, just... say what you mean to say. Sarcasm just created confusion in the conversation for me.
I waited in my mom's black BMW. My mom had a passion for cars more so even than my dad did, and he was a car mechanic. She always wanted to get a new car. The last car she had barely even ran.My parents didn't feel the need to buy anything they wanted. They definitely saved money and coupons were always used. I quickly turned up the heat in the car, it was still a little chilly out. It took my brother an extra five minutes for him to finally get in the car. I pressed the button that started the car and we were off to the movies. We lived in a nice suburban area that was a good ten minutes from town. Even though we lived in a suburban area, trees and woods surrounded us.
I never asked for my own car for two main reasons. First, my parents would buy me the cheapest car they could find. It would be so embarrassing to drive it around. Secondly, I’m still terrified of driving. I can drive pretty good, I just have constant fear of wrecking. When we had arrived to the movies, all the spots seemed to be taken. Maybe there was some kind of premiere of a new movie. I looked over to my little brother with a look that served as a warning against acting foolish in the theatre. After a minute of thinking, I said, "What do you actually want to see? If you don't tell mom, I won't either." In a rare but soft tone.
He looked at me suspiciously and asked, "Are you being serious Sarah?", the excitement in his voice betraying him. He knew I rarely crossed our parents, partly because I rarely had a chance to cross them, but nonetheless, I pretty much didn't disobey.I didn’t do big things to break their rules, just some things I would do small rebellions at night when everyone slept. Nothing big, not after the summer before.
"Yes", I replied shortly. We got out and crossed the parking lot. The theatre was a brick building painted white. A neon sign at the top. “The Kingsville Theatre”, was a very infamous theatre where all the teenagers got together for dates in town on friday nights. Gladly this was saturday on spring break. No one would want to come here. Noah and I went through the two front glass doors. I held the door open for him, after a while of being a big sister I just had gotten used to treating him like baby.
"Okay, what do you want to see", I asked him staring up at all the movies listed on the gigantic white sign suspended over the ticket counter.
"Can we see that one movie, with uh.. the world ending and the people fight for survival or whatever?”, He said with a wicked grin. For a sweet looking, blonde, and blue eyed young teen, he sure could look evil sometimes, I thought. Once you got to know Noah you would receive a nasty shock.
"The End?” I asked, thinking of all the trailers I'd seen then recently.
"YES!", He replied, looking at me with a stupid grin.
Okay, I guess he wasn’t always that bad. Well he wasn't always evil if he got an accentiv from something.I walked up the ticket booth and that's when I saw her.
Chapter two-
My heart stopped, but for only just a second. "May I help you?" the dazzling redhead asked. Her green eyes were soft, but modestly confident.
I snapped out of the weird trance I had from looking in her eyes, " Oh, yeah, um.. “C-Can I have two tickets for "The End" for 6:30?", I stuttered.
I was suddenly aware of my drab clothing choices. I was wearing old jeans, with a particularly ugly red and purple plaid shirt. Everyone knew plaid was not in anymore.
"Yeah, sure", She said with a smile. She looked back up from her computer and said, "That will be $19.50, also, I haven't seen you here before, are you new here?"
I'm not shocked, remember the part where I didn't go out until my mother forced me to. "No, I just usually don't come to this part of town." Even though it's true, it’s also just an excuse.Think about how weird it would be if I instead said,”No, I’m just a hermit that is terrified of the outside world and having to talk to other living humans.” Weird, right?
I looked at her uniform, her name tag read "Molly", what a natural, normal, and wholesome name. Molly looked back at me, and I recognized she was holding the tickets. I grabbed them and nervously chuckled a little. I was acting so stupid, I felt so self conscious.
As I was about to head into the theatre she said, "Do you go to Kingsville High here in town?”, with a interested look in her eyes.
I turned back around on the balls of my feet. "Yeah, I do", I replied as my heart did an unexpecting flip. "Well, I hope I'll see you at school then", she replied with a smile that displayed her blindingly white teeth. She was so cheery and upbeat.
I waved goodbye, and left to find Noah, who had migrated to the arcade. "Hey, dufus, I got the tickets. Let's go before we miss the previews." Noah turned around and put the red plastic gun back in its holster, "What took so long?" he asked as if I took over twenty minutes to get the tickets. I laughed, "I got your tickets, so what does it matter? Now move it."
We walked into the movie and take our seats. During the movie I wondered about molly, and how I could have never seen her at school before. Maybe I just never reached out of my bubble. I tended not to talk to people, and people tended not to talk to me either.It was a good system, or rather a system I had gotten accustomed to.I decided to focus on the movie. The movie was good. I loved action movies too. The dark and gory the better. Scary and action Movies never bothered me. Mom would ground Noah and I if she knew what we were watching. I would just be sad that I broke her trust again Noah would just be mad that he would be able to leave and hangout with his friends.
After the movie was over, I rushed Noah out so I can maybe catch a glimpse of the redhead. Maybe I could get her number or something. Something about Molly made her seem comforting and not a gossipping rat. But alas, it was too late. The movie theatre was closed, and she was gone. Why did it matter to me?
Some tossing and turning in bed that night gave way to the answer. It had been to long. I was over this wall I built from the people who betrayed me and from the rumors that dettered people from my desk at school or a seat next to me at lunch.
Chapter 3-
I woke up to my mom's obnoxious pounding on my door. "Honey, I made breakfast, and you better not let it get any colder than it already is." I looked around my quaint, small room. There is a beam of light coming through my black lace curtains. '
"What time is it?", I asked groggily. "I'll tell you what, it is too late for you to be sleeping a day before schools starts back up!", Mom sayed with a unapproving ring to her voice.
I got out of my bed and walked to the door. I opened it reluctantly. "I'm coming, and thanks for the breakfast." I looked more like my mother than my dad. She had dark brown, almost black hair and hazel eyes but they were mostly green.
As you could probably tell, my dad is the one with the blond hair and blue eyes. That is how Noah got his looks. "Well how was the movie last night", mom asked, pleased that I actually came to the door instead of carrying the conversation through it.
"Oh it was fun, Noah wasn't too annoying as he usually is", but I was now distracted with the thought of her. Why was I thinking about her?
"Well okay, like I said the food is getting cold", Mom then swiftly left and went downstairs. The only really difference between us is that she had some gray coming in, she had more of a pear shape to her as well. Lastly she was a little shorter than me.
I guess my dad gave me my height considering i'm 5'10. I left my bedroom to go to the only bathroom upstairs and brushed my teeth. Uhg, school was starting tomorrow and I was just not ready. Don't get me wrong school isn't that hard for me.I keep roughly a B in all of my classes. But i'm dreading the early mornings, the anxiety of being paired with people you don't like, and being notice as the girl that got all of her "friends" in trouble. If they could be “friends”. In elementary I had a best friend. One of those neighbor friends that were your friend for only one reason. They lived right by you. We did everything together. My mom would take us to school, and hers would pick us up. We shared toys in all. Jessica was my other half. We just grew up. We were opposites. I like photography and vintage stuff. She was very stylish and had tubs of makeup by thirteen. By fifteen I was just aloud to start using lipgloss and mascara. Good thing that I didn't really care for it.
Sophomore year Jessica decided to be a good person I guess. She decided to ask me to hang out with a few friends . They wanted to go to the mall and then to a bonfire. I knew they felt bad for me since I always was pretty much alone all the time at school but I didn't care I just want to experience what a normal teen usually did. Although now I fully regret it. The. Worst. Decision. Of. My. Life.
The mall part was okay. We went to the different stores and tried on clothes. It had been pretty fun. My dad had given me some money too, I think that my dad also felt bad for me. Then we went to Jessica's house for the bonfire. During the bonfire one of jessica ran into the house. We were all sitting in lawn chairs around the fire. We sat so close that I started to gets a light layer of sweat on my forehead. Jessica's friend, whos name might have been Lacey carried a tray back to us. They plucked off these plastic shot glasses and started to eat their contents.
Jessica handed me one. She said, "Hey my parents are cool they don't care".
I took it, "thanks", I said cautiously. Following the rest of the girls I threw back my head and and it flopped in my open mouth. The jello was orange but something bitter was also in there.
I asked, "what are in these jess". Jess started laughing, "Oh my god, have you never taken jello shots, there's vodka in it."
My eyes went wide. Jessica, being the blonde she was, didn't understand. I Never Have Drank Before! My parents really never drank, maybe wine once or twice a month.
Jess handed me another one, “here take it you are fine, you can stay the night" , I took it because I thought about how I have never hung out with anyone and how this will probably be the only chance to have to drink. Lastly I thought about how badly I wanted to be a normal teen for once.
So we kept listening to music and taking these bitter sweet little shots and then headlights came up the driveway after two hours of doing this.
I had just then remembered that I had gave my mom an address of where I had been. But I never asked to stay the night because I was eager to have more and more of the shots. Let me tell you something, I was feeling it.
My mom got out of her black BMW and walked up to us, yelling "Sarah!", and when shes saw us she also looked down at all the littered little plastic shot glasses illuminated by the fire light, she was holding bags with clothes.
Maybe she was automatically going to let me stay the night. Immediate shame and embarrassment flooded my drunken mind.
She just looked at me sadly and said, "Sarah get your ass in the car, and for all of you i'm making sure all your parents know about this."
This was the only time That I could remember of my mother cursing me out.
Now because of me all those girls never have been able to hang out together since then. But at school it was a different story. They all came together and because of what I did, they spread all these rumors. Jessica was the real perpetrator though.
Making sure I would never have a normal high school career again. I looked up from spitting out the tooth paste. Mom screamed from down stairs, "don't make me come up there again."
I washed my mouth out with the water from the faucet. I walked downstairs and into the dining room. Everyone was sitting there around the table.
"Who wants to lead the prayer, and we better eat fast so we don't miss the second sermon like the first", she stared me down.
I Sat down, but all I could think of is that once Molly knows some of the rumors, she is going to stay away and never will want to befriend me. I don't know why that scared me so much. Maybe it was because I was starting to get that lonely, desperate even.
Chapter 4-
As the prayer ended, lead by the one the only, Freddy devout, my dad, the preacher's son, we dug in to this glorious feast.
I was 16, and I had one of the most dry social life's a teen could have. I didn't reach out because i'm pessimist in life. I Know every relationship I would build up in high school will be broken after graduation. I guess that it didn't help that my social anxiety was amazingly bad. Also that people thought I was a disease carrying freak.
I have never had a boyfriend, and really I didn't want one. I have lived in kingsville, Nebraska my whole life. It was only place I ever new of. I was starting to get bord.
I guess I didn't hate everything. At night when my parents and everyone was sleeping, I would rebel in small ways. I would watch "Rupaul's Drag Race" and listen to the sexually confident pop stars like Beyonce, Britney Spears, and Nicki Minaj. Well, Nikki was a rapper, but you know what I mean.
My mom would drop dead if she knew I was to listening them. They made me feel confident and sexy;. Something I had been lacking. In this household we listen to christian music,christian television, and we read the bible.
My parents weren’t horrible people whatsoever. You might think they were the actually the embodiment of lucifer ironically. Although they just wanted the best for me. They would help me through everything I asked and had provided me with everything I need. That is why I didn't put up a fight when we went to church because I didn't want to hurt them more than I had already have with last summer and all. I had never done anything to that measure before. A Lot of people would think it was just drinking. Why would I be so dramatic. Well we had a tight knit family. I had lost a lot of friends since middle school, so my mom and dad were like my best friends. I would go on daddy daughter dates and all that stuff. After the incident it just felt awkward. It was like I transformed from their sweet little girl into a gothic rebellious teenager. I felt like I betrayed them. I felt like I didn't deserve to hang out with them. So after awhile of me turning them down they eventually quit asking.
"Sarah, finish eating and help your brother clean the table. Everyone we leave in twenty five minutes go get ready." My dad snapped me out of my self reflection.
Chapter 5-
The greeter of our small church smiles and nods when we exit. He was a short and a little heavy. He had cherry red cheeks and a huge smile on his face. If he was placed in a red suit his name might as well be Santa. The Preacher at our church was my grandpa. All sermon long he would discuss islam, gay extremists, and all other things I was beginning to doubt with in the church. They were hot topics though, so I understood why he would bring them up. Although why couldn't we just worship about god? Why did we always have to focus on people that were really not harming anyone? Well those people never had hurt me or ever hurt our church members. Not to my knowledge.
When I got home I went to my room and flopped on my bed. I got on my phone and started searching for Molly. I wanted to see her face again, her powerful eyes again. I looked at all the Mollys in Kingsville. Finally I found her, after a while of searching of course. Her profile picture is her in front of tree with a green dress. A tight dress. A really tight dress. I followed her impulsively and instantly regretted it. Actually I only regretted it because i'm frightened that she might deny it. But I needed to see more pictures of her.
I don't know why she intrigued me so much.I figured I was just friendless for too long. It was 1:34 p.m. and I have 7 hours before mom would force me to go to sleep for school. I always have a lot of free time. Well I do what I always dis, I watched Vampire diaries on my phone. This is another thing my parents would kill me for. They caught me watching it one time and went on and on about how it was demonic.
I felt like sometimes they were trying to push me away. I know better now that they weren't.
Bing.
A notification pops down from molly_green101, she accepted my follow request and also followed me back also. I accepted it at once. I went to her page and looked at all of her glamorous photos and selfies. My god this girl took so many pictures but I didn't mind looking at all the gorgeous photos. On my page there is maybe 5 photos of myself and other than that there were just pictures of scenery that I took with my very expensive canon camera . One minute later she direct messaged me.
Molly_green101: Hey, your the girl from the movies, right?. What up?
SarahDevout32: Yeah thats me lol, I just got back from going to church. How about you?
Molly_green101: Oh cool, I'm just about to go do some shopping with my mom. So I gtg, nice talking to yeah, I will see you tomorrow.
SarahDevout32: Ok Cya tomorrow.
I turned off my phone and buried my face into my black pillow case. Everything in my room is black, a recurring theme. It isn't because im super depressed and need a lot of help or anything. I just find comfort in the color. My head was swimming.Even though it was an emotionless and short conversation it meant so much to me for some reason back then. The conversation at least meant she wasn't afraid to talk to me or that she exactly didn't exactly not want to talk to me. I needed a hot shower to calm these weird thoughts crossing my mind. After my shower I put on my Pajamas and climbed into bed. I knew it was only 3 p.m. but I needed to rest my rushing mind.
Chapter 6-
My mom woke me up for dinner at 6 p.m. and right after I dived right back into bed. I put my headphones in and listened to my favorite beyonce song. This created a perfect environment for sleep.
That night I had the weirdest dream of my life. I walked through the doors of William high and saw her. She was standing in the middle of the sea of students in the lobby. She was staring right at me. She wore a pure white dress and held a bokay of flowers. She smiled at me and then waved me over. I walked over to her and when I looked at her bokay of flowers again, they were not flowers anymore but she held 2 tickets, when I looked back up she said, "That will be $19.50". When I recognized what was going on, I took in my surrounding again and we were at the movie theatre.
Beeeeep.Beeeeeeeep. Beeeeeeeep.
My alarm clock that I programmed a few days ago to go off at 6:00 a.m. on monday was doing its fixed job. I felt groggy. I also had anticipation for the first time ever to go to school. I can't believe it. I was actually eager to leave. The possibility of having someone to talk to made me very thrilled. I was finally ready to have a friend. Finally the rumors died down and I had finally healed from them. I never got suicidal or anything but it made me never want to talk to anyone. I knew that if I did the first thing that would pop in their heads would be all the things that they had heard about me.
I walked to the bathroom and did the necessary stuff. I took a shower,brushed my teeth, and weird enough I felt like I wanted to wear makeup. The problem was that I didn't own any. Partly Because I never had any interest in wearing it. I then remembered that my mom had some in the cabinet. I reached for it. The makeup was in a purple little bag. I'm not completely oblivious to the world of makeup. How could I be, there are makeup tutorials on every social platform. Since I lacked the skills, I did the bare minimum. I put on some concealer on, which surprisingly matched me pretty good. Then I put on some lip gloss, and mascara. I wanted to make a good impression. She might introduce me to new people, so I needed to be prepared.
I was wearing a nice Blue sweater and some jeans. They were new and in style. The makeup took a while so after I was done I was able to pick up my, you guessed it, my black backpack and left for the bus. I made A acquaintance at school. I wouldn't say friend because remember I don't have any. At least at that moment in time. Her name was Alondra. She was also outcasted. Not because there were rumors about her but because she was the only minority at William High. We were forced to be lab partners and were also forced to sit at seat fourteen on the bus, it was destiny. We talked rarely but sometimes we chatted up. I wasn't completely mute as soon as I left for school. I made my way downstairs and to the corner of my street where my bus picked me up. Noah got to sleep in because he had friends to take him to school. 5 minutes later and the bus pulled up to pick me and two other kids that live near by up. I made my way to seat 14 and plopped down.
I looked to Alondra hesitantly and finally asked, "hey, do you know a Molly that goes to our school."
Alondra turned to me and replied, "yeah I know her, you talking about the redhead?".
I hid my excitement, "That's her, do you know anything about her".
I maybe didn't hide my excitement well enough because the next thing that fell from Alondra's mouth shocked me so much. "I know shes cute but dont drool.", She must have had to see the fear and shock in my eyes and said, "I'm just joking with you, but yeah she's a senior, she plays soccer, and she works at a movie theatre I think."
I was suddenly was relieved but I should have known she was joking because the other reason why Alondra was outcasted was because she was openly Bi and was comfortable making jokes like that to anyone.
Alondra cocked her head and asked with a lot of curiosity, "why do you want to know? Also that's all I got, I only have pre-calc with her.", I responded confidently trying to hide my over the top enthusiasm, "I saw her at the movie theatre and wondered who she was, I saw her name tag and I didn't know any molly's." She normally said, "cool" and went back to listening music. The bus pulled up to our school.
Kingsville High was pretty large. I exited the bus and went the through the front doors. I walked around the school before first bell, students littered every where huddled in little groups.Being accepted and being liked. I looked at them all longing for the same experience.I looked around hopefully some more. I made a full circle and was where I started, in the lobby. There were 2 minutes before the bell rung. I looked across the lobby hopefully and I locked eyes with her for the second time. The same Heart flipping excitement bursting through my body as before. She smiled and started to walk over to me. Side note, coincidentally or not she Had a Pure white shirt on and was holding a flower pen.
Chapter 7-
"Hey, are doing anything tonight?", Molly asked when she came up to me. My eyes widen at this sudden question. I was not expecting that. "Oh, hey, and um no i'm not". Molly grinned her beautiful grinned and asked, "Well tonight I was wondering if you wanted to hangout, Amanda can't, and I still have an extra ticket from work, you know for a movie". The possibilities of what could happen tonight made my head swirl. I still didn't know though. I was nervous. I didn't want to screw it up like last time someone wanted to hang with me. Molly was waiting expectantly. I had to make a decision. I looked up her and uttered a single word that changed my whole life, "sure".
"Well I have to go, i'll text you later.", her red hair was in a ponytail and as she walked away it swayed side to side as if waving goodbye. I went to my first period stunned, but also felt extremely alive. That's how she always made me feel, even through text.
Molly's Pov
Chapter 8-
I had to get away as soon as I asked her. I couldn’t believe I just asked her to go to the movies with me. Of course I made up Amanda going, I was only considering her. She was closed up and I had a strange but absolute need to open up her heart. I needed to know her. Her beauty was outstanding, the way her hazel eyes shimmered in the light. She was perfect. "Miss.Green, will you please for the third time read the the question", Mr.atticus asked frustratingly. I blushed but I did as he asked.
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Ever since I saw her at the movies I couldn't unsee her. Sarah. The day she requested to follow me I was so caught off guard.I was looking for a profile picture that looked like her but I didn't catch her name that day at the theatre. I had to message her. She is quiet, introverted. I find that kind of adorable. I wonder what kind of energy is locked in her mind and body. If her shell would ever crack with me. I hope so. My family is really excepting. They know how I feel about girls. I just wish I could tell everyone. Actually I wish it was something I didn't need to "confess" to. I hope I'm not hurting myself trying to get to know Sarah. She has to feel the same as me. How could she not feel that invisible rope tugging on our hearts when we lock eyes. I try to push these thoughts out of my mind . I should just be content in the idea that she didn't turn me down and that she is even talking to me.
Chapter 9-
The school day went by as any other day would. The thought of going out with molly tonight was all I could think about during all of my classes. I didn't see molly at all during school. When I got off the bus I ran home and rushed up the stairs. I went to the desk that was on the right side of my bedroom. The window was right behind it but you wouldn't have noticed it considering how dark my room was and that the curtains were pulled closed. I reached into my pocket and grabbed for my phone. I turned it on and squinted. The light was really bright in contrast to my room and it hurt my eyes. I quickly messaged her.
SarahDevout32: "Hey, so what's the plan for tonight"
Molly_Green101: "I can pick you up, its at 4:30"
SarahDevout32: "Okay sounds good, I gotta go and tell my mom"
Molly_Green101: "Okayyy, TTYL"
I walked down the stairs and found my mom vacuuming the family room. "Hey mom can I ask you something", I asked looking down at her feet, not ready to have a talk about how I needed to promise her I wont do anything illegal.
Mom looked up, "sure honey, what's up". She sat down on the tan leather couch and patted the seat next to her. I sat down promptly. “can I go to the movies with my friend Molly tonight, she has a extra ticket and has no one to go with her?", I asked as innocently as possible.
Her face automatically contorted into a kind of surprised look. This is the first time I've asked to go out since the bonfire. "Just promise me you will make good decisions. Also I want Her phone number, Her mother's phone number, and I want to meet her before you guys leave.", She looked worried but still had a smile on her face.
"sure mom, will do", as I was leaving mom said, "Sarah?" I turned to her and she looked back up to me and said, " Have fun tonight honey bun". I smiled and made my way upstairs. I didn't know why she called me by my old nickname. I earned it growing up because I was obsessed with honey buns.
On the top of the stairs I pulled out my phone again and sent a quick text to molly letting her know that I was aloud to go but My mom needed her number and her moms, and lastly the most nerve wracking part is that she needed to meet my mom. Luckily she was okay with it, why was I fretting about it? I headed to the bathroom to brush my teeth again and reapply some light makeup.
Ding-dong
I opened up the door and she was standing there, "So where's mama bear?", she asked humorously. I looked at her a little to long, taking her in. She smelled of sweet vanilla. She had to just spray some perfume a short while ago.
"This way", I said motioning her towards the dining table that was near the front door. "Hi, im molly", She stuck out her hand. Mom took it pleasantly and motioned her to sit down across from her. Mom and Molly spoke about going to the movie and what we were going to watch. Of course my mom looked at me and was about to say I wasnt aloud to go to the movie when she learned that it was Pg-13, then changed her mind. Maybe she knew she was choking me and needed to let go a little.
Finally she let us go. Molly's car was a red sports car. Guessing by it her parents probably had well paying jobs. When we both got in she looked over and said, "Are you excited, for the movie". In my mind I thought no im not. I'm really not even interested in the movie at all. I'm excited to be finally able to Get to know you. This was a chance I was okay in taking.
Chapter 10-
"What kind of music you like", molly aske. I looked over at her and started to giggle, "do you really want to know, it's embarrassing". "Tell me sarah", she demanded with a smile. It was weird hearing someone other than my family and teachers saying my name.
"I listen to a lot of 90's music okay." Molly's head snapped so fast towards me that the car swiveled a little on the road, "OH MY GOD, me too. When everyone isn't home I blare Christina and Destiny's child on", that made me laugh even more.
I reached for the radio station dial, I know it could be considered rude because it was her car in all but I knew what kind of music she liked, so I thought she wouldn't mind. At the last second I was about to reach it, her hand suddenly appeared. Our hands collided and it was the most awkward touch and feeling I had ever had by someone, wait no it was when Grandma susie used to try and get me to kiss her on the lips.I shuddered at the thought. I looked away at my hands and muttered,"sorry".
She kept her eyes on the road when she said, "don't worry about it, you can change the station". She was just so confident. I really liked that quality, maybe I could learn one day how to pull it off correctly. Although confidence couldn't be learned I guesses.
"So what does your parents do", I asked eager to know more. "My mom owns a boutique and My dad owns a restaurant, they were passed down to them, how about you?". I guess my observations about her parents were correct.
"My dad is a mechanic, but my mom helps out at my grandpa's church". We have been sitting in parking lot of the movies for like over five minutes, I guess we both really didn't care about the movies. Until she said, "we are here let's get going". We both got out and walked up to the movie theater.
Chapter 11-
We made our way into the movies theatre. We got up to the counter. "Hey fred", Molly sayed giving the tickets to a coworker that smells strongly like skunk, clearly he took part in the cannabis culture in Kingsville. "Hey molly, who is this", he said. He had such a cheeky tone in his voice that it made me feel uncomfortable. He kept eyeing me up and down. His eyes were so red like he poured soapy water in them. Yup this guy definitely smoked something earlier today.
"This is Sarah", Molly said. The guy kept looking between us smiling. What is this guy trying to insinuate, I thought. "She is my friend", Molly said. She had put a large amount of emphasis on the my part.
"Lets go", she said eyeing him as we left. Once we got into the movie molly led me to a seat and we sat down. I acted as if I was watching the movie the whole time but I was really just watching every movement Molly was making.
I thought about what molly would think If she knew I was doing this, she would probably think I'm a freak of some sort. When she crossed her legs during the movie her leg brushed against mine. I felt the sensation through my whole body. Another time we made physical contact during the movie was when she put her arm on the armrest, this would've been a normal movement if it wasn't for the fact that my arm was already sitting there. Our hands touched for the second time. Although this time neither of us moved them.
After the movie we sat up together at once. We took some time to stretch from sitting in the chairs for over an hour and a half. She looked at me and asked, "Hey the night is still early, you want to catch something to eat." Not wanting the night to end so abruptly, I replied, "yeah sure" but then remembered I left my purse and everything at home. You might ask yourself, what kind of girl does that? Well I dont have makeup to lug around with me, I thought we would only be seeing a movie which I didn't need to pay for, and lastly I didn't need my license since molly came over to pick me up.
"Molly I can't, I forgot my wallet at home". She wasn't phased at all by this, "Oh no your fine, I was planning on paying for you anyway. I'm the one asking you out to dinner", She laughed it off and grabbed her over the shoulder bag. It was the kind of bag you would think a girl with an expensive sports car would have. It was a Gucci bag, I suddenly noticed it. She saw me looking at it and said, " My parents bought it for me for my sweet sixteen when we went to california, so what about dinner". She said this but I still noticed it when she pushed the bag a little behind her. "Sure but I just cant be to late or my mom will kill me". When we got in the car I thought for a moment, a long moment. I thought of all the fun moments we had had already, I couldn’t wait for more to come.
Chapter 12-
We went to Applebee's. It was perfect. Not too fancy and not too cheap either. We sat down and the hostess let us know that our server would be with us shortly.
"Thanks for taking me out, you really didn't have too". She waved it off, "No, it's fine. Anyway I thought it was a good opportunity to be able to chat a little longer."
She had her hair down and curled, different that it was earlier that day at school. It was glossy and smooth looking. I knew she had never dyed it by how healthy it looked. "Well um do you have any animals?". She cracked a smile and laughed a little, "what, why are you laughing?", I Asked a little to defensively. "You want to know if I own any pets?" I looked down, me not socializing with peers my own age was showing. "Nevermind" , I said softly. "No, it was funny, you are just adorable sometimes." We both froze after that statement.
I felt the warmth crawl out to my cheeks. I looked up to her and she was also blushing. "I have a cat, how about you?", I could tell she tried to divert the conversation as fast she could. "I don't have pets", I quickly replied. The waiter had then just came up to us. Maybe at the best time he could've been able to come, "what can I get you two ladies to drink." We both said, "water", at the same time and blushed a little more. He then left to retrieve the water.
"What is your favorite show?", she asked me. "I like Vampire Diaries and Teen Wolf", I didn't know how she would react to my answers. I kinda liked everything that was cringey. I didn't dare to mention Rupaul's Drag Race. Hey, there is nothing wrong with drag queens to me but I didn't know how she felt about them. I very badly didn't want to scare her off.
Chapter 13-
I didn't know how those words left my mouth. I just thought them and then they left my mouth. I fiddled with the paper that came off the straw. We just had gotten our waters, and now we're ordering our food.
“I'll have a Garden Burger”, I informed our waiter. “Me too”, said Sarah. She gave a crooked smile at the waiter as he walked away. I felt a twinge of jealousy, I knew it was stupid. I just already felt so protective over her. She was just trying to be a pleasant person.
“I need to let you know something, Sarah”.
I needed to let her know about the feelings that have been brewing in me ever since I saw her at the movies. It was wrong for me to keep them from her if I was going to be putting myself around her still.
“Yeah?”, she tilted her head so strongly that some of her dark brown hair fell into her face, she brushed the pieces away at once.
“You want to come over at my house wednesday, we can swim in my pool? My parents are leaving town.”, I knew it was wrong of me to hide my feelings from her. I just needed to be sure. Even though deep down I was sure. Tomorrow seemed like a great attempt to see if my feelings would solidify or melt away. I mean it wasn't like I was in love with her at all, it was just that I was interested in her and it felt weird and a little gross to continue hanging out if I liked her in any way like that.
“Is it not a little to cold for that, it's like 55 degrees outside?”, She was clearly confused.
I tried to say the next part not like a rich brat, “ my pool is heated and also if it is to cold I have a hot tub”. Hot tubs and heated pools was not that common in this town.
“ I will have to see, but my mom is pretty strict”, she looked guilty when she said this.
My brain immediately pictured her in a bathing suit. I felt awful at this, she needed to know. Wednesday if I still feel like this I will let her know. I just don't want to risk it all. I've texted girls, I have had crushes on girl at school as well. None of those feelings couldn't even compare how I felt when I looked into her eyes, the eyes that were so much like mine but also different. Hers had bits of browns and were of a darker green. They gave her so much depth. Like her, there was so much to explore. My last ex screwed me over. It happened a couple of weeks ago. I pushed those unhappy thoughts away, I had no room for them anymore.
“Two Garden Burgers”, The waiter assured when he walked up to our table and passed our food out us.
Chapter 14-
We ate our burgers in silence for at least five minutes. It was starting to get a little awkward. I decided to make some conversation.
“So are you sad that you're leaving high school in a few months.”
“How do you know I'm senior”, Molly asked
“Online I saw you were going to prom for the last time…”
I had to think fast, I couldn't have told her I was asking around for her.
“Oh, not really, well thinking about it now. There might be a few things I will miss.”, Molly held a very intense gaze with me but then sighed a little and went back to her burger.
“So what is highschool like for you”, she asked me.
“Highschool kinda sucks for me, people don't really dont talk to me. Well it's because they think I have the clap, or that I'm pregnant. Although when I didn't show they said I got it aborted.”
Molly's eyes went wide and the the burger she was holding to her mouth was put down suddenly, “You are that girl”
My bottling up of the past rumors had finally had finally had evaded me which only left me looking even more like an outcast then before. I had a sudden need to find some space away from her.
I got up. “I have to go to the bathroom, excuse me”
She grabbed my hand, not aggressively or like she was trying to trap me. It was a gentle clasp, “please don't leave, I clearly don't believe those things”.
I was already so embarrassed by the way I almost stormed away. She looked at her hand and let go. I slowly lower my self in the seat. I decided to stay. Something in her made me trust her.
Chapter 15-
We were In Molly’s car when my phone started vibrating and ringing. I Answered it, “Hey mom, I'm on my way home”. I knew already what she wanted.
“Oh okay I was just checking up on you”, I rolled my eyes at that comment, of course she was.
“Well see you soon, love you” I hung up quickly. It was aggravating. She needed to learn how to let me breathe and let go a little.
“She just cares”, Molly was trying to help but she did not know the full extent of my mothers smothering. I gave her a side eye, “My bad”, She said apologetically.
The rest of the car ride was just music and light conversation. “I’m a Slave 4 U”, came on. Let me just say that song is my jam and apparently it was also Molly’s. We Started dancing as much as our seat belts would allow and were also singing along to it. Admittingly it was lousy singing. After the music cut out, we started to chuckle at our own embarrassingly bad performance. This is what I’ve been missing out of since the beginning of highschool. She glanced over at me, “ I really had fun tonight”, A street light catching the bright green sparkle in her eyes.
I felt whole. “Me too”, I responded with such certainty. We then carried on with what we were doing before with listening music, until we pulled up to my brick house.
“Goodnight, is wednesday still a possibility”, She said this in such of a way that it made me not want to leave her at all. But I knew I had to. “Goodnight, and I will try”, I reassured her.
As I started to unbuckle myself, she said, “ I will come pick you up, or you can just come home with me after school”, she said readily.
“I'll text you tonight about it”, with one last glimpse, I went inside my house.
“Hey mom I'm home”, I called into the house. In the other room someone had called back, “Hope you had fun Honey Bun”, this was my dad. “Where is mom?”, I asked.
“Grocery run”, He was laying on the couch bundled up like a burrito. “Well i'm going to bed”, I told my dad
“ goodnight then”
My dad was strict but not as much as my mom. I knew I should use the moment to my advantage. My mom wasn't here to object. “Hey can I go to my friends house tomorrow to swim, she has a heated pool and a hot tub. It's the girl I was with out tonight.”, Good call I thought to myself. My dad would be more willing to let me go. “Yes, you can go. Just get all your homework done, and be home before 7 p.m. And Sarah, Has your mom met her?”
“Yes she has, goodnight”.
The fact that I was going to be able to see her again made me all energized. This made sleep get flushed out of my mind. “Thanks, love you.”
“Goodnight”, He said again and went back to watching the sports game. I left and went to my room, as I went to my room, I remembered, that for the second time in the last few days my parents used my old pet name. “Honey Bun”, I pondered what was making them pick up the old habit again. I went to my dresser and pulled out a dark gray Nightgown. I changed into the nightgown and turned off my lights. I texted her.
SarahDevout32: My dad said yes
Molly_Green101: Okay awesome! See you tomorrow
SarahDevout32: gn
Molly_Green101: gn
I got onto Netflix and put on my go too show on. Vampire diaries, of course and watched with my headphones in. I started to drift away to sleep’s open arms. The last thought that was left. The image that lingered, that stayed was Molly. With her fiery hair and her fantastic peppy attitude. That attitude that brightened up my entire day today. Today had been truly Amazing. Maybe the best day that my young life has experienced yet. We were one in the same. So similar but also drastically different.
New Chapter- My Alarm Clock did the usual, and so so did I. I had hit snooze a couple of times and finally drug myself from the blissful warm bed. This morning Noah wasn't up so I got to do all the things I wanted. I hope he didn't speak to Molly, I thought as I was drying off my newly showered body. I didn't even know why he thought he had a chance. I also didn't know why he wanted to ruin my only chance at connecting with someone. He didn't have to go through what I was going through. He is extremely popular. He would be your typical football player but too bad for him mom is super overprotective over that too. She thought that he will get killed. I walked sullenly down the steps. I made my way into the mostly white vintage kitchen and brewed some coffee. Coffee doesn't affect me but I still really enjoyed the taste. While I slowly sipped some of the freshly made coffee I checked my phone. Usually there were no messages, I just like to see what the new twitter drama was all about. I guess today was different because I had two messages, both from molly.
Molly_Green101- Hey do you want to come to my soccer game, it's a major game?
Molly_Green101- Sorry I forgot to mention it last night.
She wanted Me to go her game. With people from school all around? It was a little different hanging out in public with random people around then it was with your classmates. I chewed my lip. I really wanted to go but I wasn't sure. It seemed like it could be a good opportunity to be able to get out of this house again. Although I am a little terrified how everyone will treat me, especially because I will be alone in the bleachers. I needed to do this, learn how to socialize. Learn how to be normal. I had to make a decision so I replied back.
SarahDevout32- I'll have to see if can, but if so then yes lol, Good luck tonight if not.
I finished my cup of coffee and went to the bus stop and waited. It had felt like it took forever for the bus to finally come. Once it had we all climbed onto the much warmer bus like every school morning. Alondra was in our seat looking out the window. I sat down carefully not trying to flop into her. I had a perfect idea at that moment. Like a huge cartoon light bulb went off over my head. Politely I tapped Alondra. She turned her head away from the passing trees and houses from the outside.
“Yes Sarah?”
“Are you doing anything tonight”, I asked basically pleading her to say no.
“Um no, what's up?”
“Do want to go to a soccer game?
Alondra had a light bulb going off moment to because she said, “Ohhhh, this is about molly, I was wondering why you wanted to go to a soccer game, that didn’t sound your speed.”. She giggled a little.
Should I be offended. I decided not to be because she did hit the nail right on the head.
“Well?”, I pressed on.
“Sure, it might be fun.”
I gave her an awkward side hug in our seat that just really turned into me bombardenly throwing my body onto hers.
“Thanks”
Not soon much after we pulled into the school’s parking lot to get dropped off.
At lunch I sat alone. Partly because I chose to and because no wanted to sit by me. But I had a feeling while eating my school salad, that being friends with Molly might give people the pushed to sit by me. As if someone that was kind of popular needed to test the waters with a diseased filled monster to deem It safe for everyone else.
As as I got home hours later I rushed into the living room. Mom had just got done with the cleaning. She was all sweaty and had her feet kicked up onto the coffee table. Her dark hair plastered to her forehead with sweat. When my mom cleaned, she cleaned hard.
“mommy?”, I said with a giggle. I sat down right by her. I laid my backpack down right beside my feet.
She looked at me suspiciously. Eyeing me.
“Yeeessss?, what do you want from me”
“I know that I have been gone a lot lately, but can I please go to molly's soccer game. She really wanted me to go. And, um can I take your car.”
I said the last part faster in the fear of her response to my question.
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Her(Draft 2)
Roman d'amourA LGBT+ with a girl discovering love and a real friendship for the first time.
