LOS IDIOTAS SERIES 1: MAXIMO ZAPATA

CONFUSION

pagkatapos umalis ni Gab ay dumiretso ako sa loob at wala na doon ang kapatid nila only my brother was left there nakayuko siya while gripping his own hair and he screamed frustatedly..tsk i know he is very confused right now and what he needs is not a sermon and some blaming all he needs right now is space and peace of mind lots of it for him to think accordingly

"i know you have too much in your plate right now and Im just here not to judge and blame you but to understand your situation"sabay upo ko sa tabi niya and pat his shoulder

"kuya I talked to that girl already, and I told her na nadala lang ako ng sobrang galit kanina at nasabi ko sakanya lang yung bata, but nung lumabas na sila I realized thats my own flesh and blood and he has nothing to do with this so hindi niya kailangang madamay, dahil kung may nagkamali man ay kami ng nanay niya yun and after realizing those kind of things i thought why wont I work this marriage out,and kanina ng nagusap kaming dalawa I asked her if I can hold her belly she said yes so I did and all the anger melted and was replaced by excitement and eagerness to see my child and to jold him in my arms already kuya"

"Im so proud of you brother so if thats the case then why we're you screaming??"I asked with my voice filled with curiosity

"yeh that, I just realized how idiot I am, you know the first time she told me that she was pregnant was 2 weeks ago and pinagtulakan ko lang siya, coz I thought that she's just one of those ladies na naghahabol sa akin but no,she isnt I mean yes she said she like me,but she's not desperate hindi niya pinagpilitan ang sarili niya sa akin, the day we happend she did drink but she wasnt drunk, and also after telling me about the situation I was scared so I pushed her away and she didnt even bug me and hindi na talaga siya naghabol I assume its because of her pride and ego after all she is a brat and a girl full of herself but most of all she knows her worth and where she stands "kumunot yung noo ko

"one night stand lang diba?? eh bat andami mong alam sa kanya bat parang kilalang kilala mo na siya bakit parang alam na alam mo ang buong pagkatao niya,u even described what kind of woman she is ano yun nag getting to know each other stage kayo habang nag babayuhan kayo?"sarcastic kong tanong sakanya

"NO we didnt even talked..actually she left,madilim pa lang umalis na siya sa bar"there is something more

"nah its not the answer to my questions but why do you sound so dissapointed while telling me that she left first thing in the morning??"tanong ko sakanya and my voice sounded playful

"its not for you to know its none of your business so just shut up kuya"

"oooohhh I smell something fishy"ako na nanunuri ang mga matang nakatingin sakanya

"shut the f*ck up you KKUUUYYYAA"i laughed ng bigla siyang namula and then he picked up the throw pillow and he threw it to me at dahil tawang tawa ako hindi ko nasalag o nasalo man lang kaya sapul na sapul yung mukha ko

"oh no my handsome face"ansakit non ah nakaka baba ng ego

"aba ha kung maka pang insulto ka akala mo hindi ko napansin yung mga simpleng pagtingin mo kay Ate Gabby kanina aba akala mo ha tapos nung nagtitimpi siya sa sobrang galit you look so worried and the whole time you we're just looking at her I know where this is leading kuya and I hope you succeed good luck" patayo na siya ng tiningnan ko siya ng nagtataka

"unang una sa lahat ang kapal din ng mukha mo ha maka ate ka kinareer mo na talaga eh noh at anong pinagsasabi mo na i know where this is leading and pwede ba how can you tell about all the things I felt kanina?? and how sure are you that you are right?? ano ka manghuhula??"

"ooww your face explained it all kuya and about what I mean well find it out,you should know ikaw ang nakakaramdam hindi ako"umalis na ito at dumiretso na sa sariling kwarto

while he was left there confused about his feelings and about what hes brother meant earlier

"uugghh that idiot andami na nga ng iniisip ko dinagdagan niya pa f*ck"ano ba talaga ang ibig sabihin ng ugok nayun bahala na nga siya diyan walang hiya

i stood up at umakyat ako sa kwarto ko pagkatapos ay pumasok sa banyo habang nag sa shower ako ninanamnam ko yung tubig at ng ipikit ko ang aking mga mata nakita ko ang itsura ni Cunningham"f*ck what is happening to me bat ba bigla na lang siyang pumasok sa isip ko ??"

tinapos ko na ang pagligo at sumampa sa kama ng hubad at nang ipinikit ko na ang aking mga mata bigla na namang lumitaw ang mukha niya tas biglang bumilis amg tibok ng puso ko"AAAGGGHHHH" i screamed bakit ba ganito bakit ko ba soya iniisip bat ko ba nakikita ang itsura niya sa tuwing pinipikit ko ang aking mga mata at bakit ba bigla na lang bumibilis ang tibok ng puso ko..

pero sayang hindi ko napagmasdan ang buong mukha niya and also hindi ko makita ng maayos ang katawan niya hindi ko tuloy maiwasang magtaka kung malaki ba ang boobs niya may shape ba siya does she have a big ass makinis kaya ang hita niya ano kaya kulay ng nipple niya nag sha shave kaya si-wait wait wait wait napahinto ako ng mapagtanto ko ang mga pinagiisip ko

"WHAT THE F*CK MAXIMO WHAT THE HECK AM I THINKING AAAGGHHH"malala na talaga ako ano ba yan pati ba naman yun naisip ko pa aghh that woman is making me crazy

i was about to close my eyes ng bigla ko nanaman siyang maisip
at bigla na lang bastang lumitaw ang mukha niya sa imahinasyon ko"AAGHHH F*CK I JUST MET THAT WOMAN ANO BA ANG NANGYAYARI SAKIN AAHHH CUNNINGHAM WHAT DID U DO TO ME???"i was screaming my lungs out ng biglang bumukas ang pinto ko at niluwa niyon si Maxwell

"well well dear brother looks like im right tinamaan ka nga sa isang yun hahahaha"he said tapos sinara niya ang pinto at nakatyo siya ngayon sa harap ng kama ko

"anong pinagsasabi mo diyan at pwede ba umalis ka na dito nakakaisturbo ka"ako na iritado na"kuya ano ka ba dinig na dinig ko ang pagsisigaw mo kaya walang saysay ang pagdedeny mo diyan at fyi hindi ako ang nakakaisturbo ikaw kaya itong sigaw ng sigaw diyan kung ayaw mong magtulog abay magpatulog kanaman wag kang nandadamay nanahimik ako dito eh"siya at tinalikuran na ako

"at good luck nga pala sayo mukhang tinamaan ka na ni kupido at huwag kang magalala botong boto ako kay ate Gabriela para sayo kuya"pahabol niyang sabi bago kumaripas ng takbo bago pa lumapat sa mukha niya ang lampshade na tinapon ko sa direksyon niya langya yung lalaking yun

hay malala na nga kanina yung pakiramdam ko at ang mga iniisip ko dinagdagan na namn niya t*ng*n*ng lalaking yun ang sarap saksakin

uuuggghhh i hate what I am feeling right now wait ano nga ba tong nararamdaman ko aaahhh f*ck nababaliw na nga ata ako ni hindi ko nga lang alam kung ano yung nararamdaman ko sh*t

what a very long,exhausting,confusing,tiring,problematic,and frustrating day