girl with cancer

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The white room was too bright for her eyes, making everything blurry as she had huge urge to vomit, she pushed her body out of the bed and looked down at floor, opening her mouth, luckily someone showed a trash bin under her and everything which came out, fell inside that place, it smelled like shit as her body started to hurt, as if her stomach was on fire, then she remembered that she had not eaten anything at all and all she was vomiting was hydrochloric acid so everything in her mouth tasted like shit, the pain was bearabe but not smell, when it was over someone helped her to lay on the bed once again and started to wipe her forehead with wet towel, only after it, they wiped her mouth and gave her a cup of water to wash the taste down, it did't last long before she vomitted again, her body ached so did her leg, breathing was almost impossible so doctor placed orinasal mask on her mouth so she could catch her breath. "M..om" she managed to mumble while for some reasons her eyes started to tear up, she was still a kid, 16 years old and turning 17, still a kid who needed her mom, after all she believed that if she was there, half of her pain would disappear magically, if her mom or dad was around, she would get better, the doctor let her mother in, oh how pretty and tired she seemed, little girl tried to hand her hand out to hold on mother's one tightly, for her dear life "Shh my dear, it will be alright" she said but it seemed fake, just as fake as the city of Eldorado which she wanted to find when she was younger. "Does it hurt sweetie?" she asked as looked at her dear daughter, she shook her head even if it was a lie and breathed in

"Well let me tell others, they were worried about you" her mom said, excusing herself because she could not hold back tears anymore, the doctor remained in the room so she glanced at him, wanted to know how long she had left. "if we manage surgery, whole life" but she knew, she was at the edge of extension and something started to hurt inside, she thought she would not make it, she had a dream, she wished for it to come true, she wished to win a cup once again, to kick the ball again, to run again, to breathe again, to brush her hair and to live, everything was disappearing and it hurt, it hurt more emotionally than physically, someone entered her room once again as she tried her best to wipe her tears away, "Butch" she said as boy placed his index finger on his lips, asking her to stay quiet, sitting down next to her bed and gazing at doctor "call me if anything happens" The male said, leaving them alone. She was never stunning; all she had was beautiful eyes but she was always breathtaking for him, even now, all he could do was to envy her and kiss her forehead "you will be fine buttercup" he mumbled to her and hold onto her hand, giving it a small squeeze, it was warm. "Let's play again okay? After you get better. Join team again, we can go to university together as well, maybe even live in a same apartment and stuff" he said, being honest but the girl took off mask and cupped his cheek once again. "You asked me.. in bathroom. They told me to do so, they said I would make it alive all alone..." another attack of coughing caused her to put the mask on and close her eyes, if not her chest going up and down, she was just as good as dead

The male somehow had bad feeling about it, so bad that his body started to sweat, he didn't let her hand go, not before she fell asleep, it was when he left the room after glancing at her one last time, meeting doctor and her father, hearing their conversation, "well surgery is too risky, she might not be able to take it" "she is going to still die so if there is a small chance, please, I beg you", both of them felt how someone run passed them, little did they knew that the teen was crying and his world was falling apart, turning upside down slowly, at entrance he bumped onto his classmate and quickly covered his eyes, "I am not crying, I am not crying, she will be alright, she will be okay" he started to repeat it over and over again so brick started to shake him, "Get hold of yourself dude" he said before gazing back at girls and boys, they were here to ask about her condition, including their teacher and headmaster, even princess was there. The professor headed towards doctor while Butch tried to explain what was happening. At the end all left was regret and pain in their hearts, pain of pushing the one away, the one who used to laugh the most and enjoy her life the most , "Guys I want her to play with us again" Butch said as got up, his face was red and they could still see tears running down at his cheeks, the one who was known for her attitude and brave heart, the one who was stubborn as rock was slowly falling apart and it was happening faster than they could help him. "Dude it is Kaoru who we are talking about, no way that she is going to leave us" they said as a boy nodded "Yeah, she is strong... stronger than I can ever be" that's why everyone was comparing other girls to her right? That's why everyone was trying to be like her and speak up, that's why she was once respected, no still respected, because she was she, a girl who would hit you like a girl and would use her famous kicks to get rid of balls and annoying people like him, that's why she was the girl who he loved unconditionally