It was another one of those days, where you aren't feeling the best. You kept doubting yourself and putting yourself down for no reason. You're anxiety and depression was very prominent today as well.
You walk out of your room in sweatpants and an oversized sweatshirt. Your hair was up in a messy bun. You walk to the fridge and grab a water, and a banana you knew you weren't going to eat. You made your way to the island, and sat down. You sat there staring off in the distance, in your own little world. You were brought back to reality when a deep British accent pierced through the silence.
"Hello, Love" Harrison, your boyfriend said kissing the top of your head.
You hummed in response and tried taking a bite of the banana. You choked it down, and took a big swig of water to try to wash the tase out of your mouth.
"Awe, another one of those days?" He stepped closer to you and tried engulfing you in a hug.
"Yep" you said as you stood up before he could fully embrace you.
"I'm sorry love. I know how you're feeling" he tried making you feel better.
"No, no you don't. You never will. You've never felt anything like I have. So many people have always said that; said they cared and understood how I was feeling, but they eventually couldn't put up with me anymore and left me. Do you know how many people have just walked out of my life when things got hard? Way more than you can count on your fingers, Harrison. You'll never understand what I go through on a day to day basis." You raised your voice as you stormed into your shared bedroom.
"(Y/N) wait!" He yelled but you had already slammed the door and locked.
You silently sobbed; head shoved into your pillow to silence the cries. You never understood why people always leave. When things got hard for you, they never stayed. They never tried to help you overcome whatever was happening inside your head.
"Baby please, just open the door. Please (y/n)." He stood by the door.
You slowly got up and walked to the door, unlocked it and opened it. You watched as Harrison slowly made his way to the bed and sat down. He patted the bed next to him, signaling you to sit down next to him.
I made my way next to him and and put my head on his shoulder.
"Can you help me understand what you're feeling? I know I won't completely understand what you're going through, you're right. It was stupid for me to say that, love. I'm sorry. But if you help me understand, I might be able to get a better grasp of what's going on inside that pretty little head of yours." He has wrapped his arm around your shoulder and you both had laid down.
"Okay, so all my life, I've struggled with depression and anxiety. It's put these little voices inside my head and they tell me things that aren't true. I for some reason always believe what they tell me. They always say, "oh look she so ugly, why would anyone like her, she's not good at anything, she's so fat and stupid, I can't believe people are still friends with her. " Your eyes started to get glassy with tears. "I don't know how to stop them. It's puts me in such a toll, Harry. I can't stop them from happening, but I try so hard to not listen to them, but somehow they always get to me." You manage to say between cries.
Harrison pulled you closer to him, "oh love, I love you with all my heart. I want to make this better for you."
You flash him a smile, " I don't know what to do. They make me feel so alone. I can't stop them they won't stop. They fill my head all at once and I just get so overwhelmed. I feel like I'm alone, I'm the only one go through it. I'm always all by Myself. They make me feel like I'm struggling to stay alive." You weeped into his chest.
"I wish I could take all this pain away. I wish it were me in this situation. Baby, but know you're never alone. I'm always here right by your side whenever you need me. It will be you and me alone together." He hugged you tightly, and just laid there.
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