Senseless

Chapter One

You should really listen to People Help The People - Birdy, while reading this chapter, i'd be happy if you do so :)

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I woke up, as usual, and made my way to the kitchen for breakfast .

'Good morning sunshine' my mother smiled warmly .

I looked at her with my blank expression - the one she was used to - and nodded .

She understood me like no one did . She understood everything . She worked really hard to get me to live a good life . Since my father died, she started working her ass off just to get money for school, and basically all my needs . I appreciated that and she knew I did .

When i finished breakfast I got up and made my way to my room . I wore a hoodie and some uggs then waved goodbye to my mother and left home .

I walked to school as usual, and once there, I was greeted by Mike .

'Heyy Aria' he smiled warmly .

Well, you see, Mike was kind of my 'new' best friend . He had a heart of gold . When Mia died, he left his group of friends and started sitting with me at lunch .

No, not because he liked me, just because he was a really nice person and he knew what I was going through . He helped me a lot .

'How are you today?' He smiled .

I just shrugged and he frowned . Before he could say anything else, the bell rang .

'Gotta head to class . See you at lunch' I nodded and he went away .

Lunch break was my favourite moment of the day honestly .

'Hello again' he winked and I rolled my eyes at his playful attitude .

'You know, I'm honestly waiting for the day your feelings will come back . The day your funny, sweet old self would come back .'

I looked at him and raised an eyebrow .

'How do you know I'm funny and sweet? You don't know me .'

'I do though . I used to observe people at lunch, and you were one of them . You were always smiling and making jokes and laughing, and i knew you were a positive person . That's the main reason I'm with you today' he smiled again .

I just shrugged and mimicked him; 'observing people, observing people' and that made him laugh . I don't usually make jokes but one wouldn't hurt .

'But for real though, thank you for everything . I don't thank you much and I'm sorry about that but you know how I am . And I'm sorry you have to sit with my boring self everyday' i muttered truly meaning every word I said .

'I chose to sit with you . Plus you're not that boring . The fact that you even speak to me a little bit everyday is progress' he smirked .

'No it isn't'

And my lip twitched . I couldn't smile so my lip twitching was something, I guess . But I still felt nothing . Nothing at all .

'AH ! YOUR LIP TWITCHED! YOUR LIP TWITCHED! YOU WANTED TO SMILE I CAUGHT YOU' he screamed and everyone in the cafeteria stared at him like he has grown 2 heads .

His face flushed and he sat back down .

'This is progresss and you and I both know it . We never talk this much' he smiled again .

What's with him smiling today? I opened my mouth to object but he held his finger in the air .

'I'm off to class . Meet you in the school parking the end of the day' he said and left .

Sadly, we have no classes together . The day went by pretty fast and it wasn't as bad as i though it would be .

And as planned, at the end of the day I waited for Mike in the school's parking .

'How has your day been?'

'Fine, yours?'

'Good . Have you heard the news?'

'What news?'

'About the boy who's gonna join school in a few days .'

'Nope I didn't'

'Good thing I told you then'

'Joining school mid-term .' I huffed and rolled my eyes .

'What's wrong with that? Afraid you'll fall in love?' He smirked and regretted the words as soon as they left his mouth .

I looked at him and gave him a death glare .

'You and I both know that I don't feel anything . Don't bring this up ever again' I said .

His face fell .

'I'm sorry' he said .

And i knew he meant it .

'It's fine, I'm sorry too but you hit my weak point'

'Anyway today was a very good day and I'm quite proud of you because you never spoke to me as much as you did today . I will find that person that will bring the old you back, or at least the thing that will bring the old you back . Someday but not today . See you tomorrow' he said and before i could object like I usually do he hugged me and left .

If he thinks someone is gonna bring my feelings back, he's so damn wrong .

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