Anastashia Nathalia Ellia Darillo (1988)
They say if you want to love, you must know what love first.
They say if you love the feeling of inlove, you must enjoy it.
They say that falling inlove was a never-ending pain.
So much for any open perception of love.
But, I have my own definition of 'love'.
I remembered when I heard my grandmother spoke to me, when I was still 6 years old.
When she was still alive.
She told me, the story of Titanic.
The story between Jack and Rose.
The love that they called tragedy.
While I called it, happy ending.
I remembered my grandma's lullaby to me was the story of Jack and Rose.
"Tashia, apo.Do you know that the story of Jack and Rose, taught me so many things. It taught me to love, no matter how hard it is to find, no matter what position you have in your life, no matter how pain you will experience, and no matter how long it is to wait."
"Lola?What is love? I only know, 'I love you lola', since I don't have parents po."I innocently asked and pout my lips.
She laughed at my gesture and then continue, curling my hair with his curler.
"Apo, you're too young to know what's love. But, 'love'----- you will only know that. When you experienced it. It does not knock, it enters, with or without your permission. And all you have to do, is to enjoy it, while it last. Because no matter how people says that love have faded, they can never tell a lie to theirselves, the love is still there.Little or deeper, it always stays within.Because 'love' always lasts."
I still remember, what my grandmothers reaction, when she says that to me.
She is smiling--- sadly.
A living paradox, indeed.
That was my last time with my grandmother.
I heard her crying---- whimpering for something she cannot return.
And she keeps on shouting inside her room.
"I'm sorry Jack, if you just choose me. You would be save, even if I die. I will gladly pursue to save you, even if you bring Rose with you. If you just say that you'll choose me. Even without sincerely."
That night.
Was the painful night for me.
My grandmother died---- leaving me with nothing but a money.
I have learned, that my grandmother, Michelle Ellia Darillo.
Who also belong to the first-class, elite.
Was the first to meet with Jack Dawson.She was the first to saw Jack on the deck.
Because before Rose, she was the first to attempt, giving up her life on the deepest ocean.
Yet she turns around and found her way back to her room, when she heard her mother's shout.
She bumped with the man in her dreams, Jack.
Unto the stairs, she have met, the howling eyes of him.
And fall inlove with him, secretly.
