We haven't been together long. Only about 2 and a half weeks. She is amazing. Her eyes shine like the night sky. Her smile is the reason for mine. I have been dreaming of of girl that is as sweet and kind as her but I never knew that dream could be a reality. Up till this sentence we were together for a week. But now we have been together for a month. We are enjoying the time we get together and we are working things out. Everything so far has gone well besides accidentally elbowing her or tickling her and she hits her head cause she freaks out. I.... I don't know what it is about her but she makes me feel different. I know you are going to read this Melanie and I want you to know I love you so much. I know I might be a little depressed but all well. It feels like I could fall at any moment and not care and not get up. It feels like I'm on the ground crawling towards the finish. Its like I have been in a fight and it took everything I got but now I have to go home from the fight. There are time I just want to break down but can't. Its not that I'm embarrassed or I don't want to be seen as weak but I just can't. I don't know what it is but my body won't let me. It barley let's me cry but not at the right times. Let me put it into some terms some of you anime nerds out there. In sao (sword art online) kirito finishes the floor 100 boss on an earlier floor (I can't remember which floor tell me and I will fix it) because he figured it out because no one could get his health past half. Kirito dies but not at the same time he saves everyone left and he even manages to get out of sao. I feel like that end battle where he is out of energy but still has a will to live cause asuna wanted to get home. He did it for her. I want to do the most I can and the best I can for Melanie. She is the only one who has made me feel like there is a reason for me to be here. I wouldn't ever kill myself. I know it would damage everyone around me. Plus I wouldn't be able to even think about doing it. i love you Melanie
