Loyal to da game

Chapter 2 gettin out

Dam it don't feel like I thought it would but it feel good after doin 3 bricks in jail. time to make this money I still got a promise to keep I thought to my self as I seen my mom dukes pull up. I got 40 bands after havin my right hand give my family 5 and sent me 5 from the 50 band lick me and my brother hit. hey ma I should've new she was the only person who was gone come pick me up hey will she said as she gave me a hug. see William was my real name but everybody called me baby killa now it's just killa I'm taken my brother place in these streets. she looked me up and down and said you lookin more and more like your brother everyday God bless his soul rest in peace. I no you and I haven't been the same since that day and shhhh I put my finger on her lip you still got me ma you still got tyrell to he always gone be with us. tyrell was my big brother name only family new that though. I hope so she said then she said don't go lookin for the people who did this I lost 1 son I don't wanna loose another. ma I just did 3 years you think I wanna go back? Well I hope not im just sayin I won't you here that's all. you rember Shontiana? She asked. yea why you say that. that's all say lets get home so everybody can see how much you grown and you can have sum real food. sounds like a plan I said. we was ridin in her Honda in silence then at a red light she turned to me wit watery eyes and a smile on her face I hate seein her cry she just broke down wen dey gave me 3 years took me fAever to get over that. can I ask you something? she said. yea what's up ma. did your U brother die because he didn't wanna give up that money? what money ma? I'm not stupid the streets talk did he die over 50 thousand dollars will? ma I don't no about nun of dat I lied. I guess she seen da rage in my eyes cuz she left it alone I see him dyin in my hands every night she just grabbed my hand and squeezed it hard. I was only 14 at the time I don't won't no revenge I lied again truth be told while I was locked up all I thought bout was revenge I wanted to kill the people who changed my life faever. once I killed polo I liked da feelin and wanted to feel it again. she asked how was I able to give her 5 thousand dollars. I never seen you on the block never found drugs in your room so how did you get that type on money? ma my right hand man came up and looked out that's all. ight she said soon as we got in da driveway everybody started rushing to the car. people I Anit seen in years was there. my home boys and home girls was were free killa shirts I felt so much love man. I was lookin fa 1 person For real so I started walkin threw the crowd give everybody a dap and hug I felt like da person I was lookin for didn't show up then I felt sumthin on the back of my head lookin fa sumbody my nigga. I turn around to see da person I was lookin for my right hand man tink the man I wanted to talk to. what's good G I said as we locked up what's up bos how you he said. you got bigger then what you was last year wen I seen you he said. tink was a solid nigga he got sentenced to 6 months down da road and did most of my time wit me lil crazy nigga but do good bizness and got the connects. he was the person who I told were the 50 bands was stashed the only nigga I trusted for real foreal. It's hard to believe me and this nigga had beef at a point and time after that we got real close. We got away from everybody and started walkin down the street. he was the first 1 to speak so yo ready to get to dis money big brah I no that's all you thinkin he laughed. yea fashoe but I Anit in a rush to go back to jail we gotta b smart and have a plan. we can't be in the game forever I told him. yea I feel you he said. plus I still wanna get den niggas who killed my brother man I said feelin the pain. We not gone do nothin that's gone burn ourselfs in the end rember proper preparation pervent poor performance. with that bein said he gave me a run down on what I been missin out on.

The hood been hurtin bad Anit nobody gettin to much of nothin foreal the nigga monster and lontae goin to war over the whole city and both them eattin good. I been usin sum of da 40 bands to make moves but I put it back he said. I was thinkin how can I take over the city wit two older niggas goin neck to neck might have to hit a couple licks I thought and laughed. tink pulled out a loud blunt and started smokin it he tryed to pass it to me. nah I'm on parole nigga u trippin I gotta see her first thing in da Mornin. my fault you right he said. we headed back to the house I find it funny everybody was wondering were u was at we was only gone 10 mins. I seen my granny she gave me a hug nd kiss on da cheek seen my grandad you gettin old I told him. I still got he said throwin two jabs at me. I seen Shontiana there I rember I took her verginiy on her birthday. hey William she said lookin me up and down you look just like yo big brother everybody keep tellin me that I said it's true she said. a couple minutes later a lil boy like 3 maybe 4 came over and grabed her by da legs mommy mommy lil dude said. I was shocked he looked like a baby version of me it was funny but nah it can't be. I had to ask wats his name? Jai'seon she said. Who his daddy he look like me that's funny. look today your day William I don't wanna rain down on your parade with my problems she said I fagot she was the emotional type. what you don't wanna fuck wit me or something I asked. she told her son go play and took me threw the back door of my house. we was in da livin room we sat on the couch she had tears in her eyes. I thought she needed a minute so I looked at the walls that had the family pictures on it. I picked up 1 with me and my big brother. I really look like dis nigga twin I thought. shonti walked behind me and kissed me on the neck it sent chills down my body she said she had something to tell me. we sat back on the couch she just got to pouring her heart out fa me I Anit no she felt for me like that. she said she wanted to write and hold me down but the stuff she had to say she Anit wanna feel stupid and get hurt. then she said she didn't no how to tell me what she wanted to tell me just say it how it is shonti I told her. what she told me was shockin but at the same time it wasn't. she said after we had sex she got pregnant. she felt hurt and lied to Cuz I told her vergins can't get pregnant. then after we had sex I stopped coming over I stopped answering her calls. I rember 1 day she was crying to my momma in the living room she said that's when she first found out she was pregnant. she said she didn't no if she was going to keep it because she felt played and used that's why I never new. truth is when you wen to jail I couldn't stop thinkin bout you she said. And when you seen jai'seon I seen it in yo face that you new who he was to you. wait so you tellin me the baby that was just on yo leg my son? I asked. yes I did 3 years with out you helping so if you kool on bein in his life I'll stay solo and won't bother you I don't won't you to feel trapped because I didn't tell u nun of this til now. how to dude feel about this I asked for two reasons to see if she had a dude and to see if my suppose to be son was callin somebody else daddy. if so that Anit gone ride wit me. killa my boyfriend been in jai'seon life since he was born and he really love him like a son. Aye since its like that's then let ole boy play daddy I told her. why would you keep something like this a secret anyways I said wit a lil anger. I didn't no how you a react you was 14 and I felt you wasn't ready. well since lil dude already callin sumbody else daddy I a stay away when I get on my feet I a start givin you money and give you whatever he need ight? NO! She said I won't you in his life in our life with tears in her eyes I don't won't nobody but you bein a father to our son. just drop lil man off wenever you won't to and I'll give u money I told her. William you just got out wit no job how you gone get some money you gone stand on the block she said. just cuz you look like your brother don't mean you gotta act like him cuz if you do what he did you gone end up were he at or were you just came from. her words was true and yes the truth hurts since I can't smoke I want to at least drink tonight I told myself. I left her on the couch and went back outside were everybody was at dancing I found des new dances funny lookin what's that 1 called I asked belle. it's called the nana she laughed. I saw jai'seon and my whole mood changed I feel shonti now I can't blame her she didn't get pregnant on her own. and jai'seon didn't do nothin to me fa him to b fatherless. he was playing in dirt. I walked over to him a picked him up he look like me. what's up lil man I said he look confused like he wanted to cry but didn't say nun I guess he don't like Strangers but Atleast he anit no crybaby I don't wanna walk out on him I never new who my dad was. I don't wanna catch feelins for h then end up dead or in jail like his momma was just telling me I wish I woulda new while I was locked I woulda had another plan but I'm still bout to take over the city and keep my promise to my brother. i took my lil man to the sink and washed his hands and seen his mother was still on da couch. when she seen us together she just smiled we sat next to her y'all look so cute she said now I no I gotta add lil dude to my plan anit no way umma let him fall victim to the streets. I like dis lil nigga already. my mom came in y'all look so cute as a family she said. we anit no family this my son and my baby momma what time is it I said she looked on her phone 9:49. She said. I was eating some ribs when the house phone started to ring. what's up I answered. I no you can't smoke but cum get geeked wit da squad bottles on deck tink always wanted to get me geeked he drunk like a fish his self alright umma step out wit yall I told him bet he said umm be there in 5 mins come outside when you here the horn.