Parallell destruction

The first day

Harmony... HARMONY, the voice keeps on hissing my name as I pull my blanket further and further over my head. Not that it will protect me in any way, I just don't want to see it.
Ever since I was about eleven years old I have been seeing my darkest nightmare following my every step, in both dreams and reality. You would think that I should've gotten used to it by now but everytime it appears, my heart starts pounding harder and harder as my eyes fills up with tears and every hair sack arises on my body. Those black eyes staring right into mine, it's almost human like body but skinny as never seen before and that utterly pale skin except for the dark blue and purple veins bulging out of the skin as if its' body had been turned inside out. That is something I will ever get used to seeing.

This night is like any other, after resisting it for as long as possible I fall asleep and as usual my nightmares begin. I wake up soaked in sweat, screaming and panicking. For a second I feel relief, the nightmare is over and I'm safe. But it isn't and I'm not.

Ever since they sent me to that hellhole they call a mental hospital I decided not to tell anybody what I see. They won't be sending me back there anytime soon and it is all just hallucinations, right? I have Schizophrenia and the things I see are not real, they cannot be. The only thing that really makes me doubt that reality is a fact are my abilities. I received them, or rather I discovered them, when my doctors decided that it was best to keep me locked up in isolation. I was trying to meditate just as they had told me when suddenly, some sort of adrenaline rush took over my body. I felt my blood pumping forcefully through my body, a burning sensation flowing through my veins and then ... I caught fire. Since then it has gotten worse, I can not only control fire but also water, earth and air. The four elements are under MY control, imagine all the things I could do?! If it was real of course. The many times my parents have gotten into my room as it had burst into flames and was covered in ashes, they have taken me to the hospital who tells them that I have pyromania and that they must hide all lighters from my sight or else they would have me locked up again. In my head it's me creating the fire out of my hands but in reality, there are two matches burning in each hand that I lit "the normal way". When they find water everywhere, it is not said to be dangerous so nobody really minds it, when they find plants growing in my room they think that I've caught a normal interest and that it is good for me, they don't mind if the plants are growing out of my walls, when there is basically whirlwinds blowing in my bedroom they call it a "draft". Sometimes I let myself think that my parents, psychologists and doctors are the actual delusional ones. It can't not be real.

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Today is my first day back at school. My psychiatrists actually think that I will be able to handle it and my doctors are telling my parents proudly that I'm getting better. If only they knew. But of course I am not going to protest. It feels like ages ago since I got to leave the house, let alone meet other people!

"Okay Harmony are you ready?" my mom asks and gives my a distorted smile which I think was meant to be calming. She and dad are dropping me of at my new school and I am beyond excited, but I'm not going to let them know that. A normal teenager doesn't care about school right?
"Yeah- I mean sure, thanks for the ride.. I guess, bye now!" I said and realized that my words came out way to bubbly and hokey for a normal teen. But they just laughed, said goodbye and took of. I was alone... together with about a thousand other students.

I take out the schedule that I got in my mail the other day, my first class is biology in classroom 3A. Okay so where can I find that specific needle in this huge haystack of a school? Impossible! I have to ask someone.

"Excuse me!" I say to the first person I bumb into after passing through the entry. It is a boy, probably above 6 feet tall and I have to stretch my neck to meet his eyes.
"Oh hi! I don't think I've seen your pretty face around here" he says smirking. I want to barf but since I don't want to make any enemies on my first day I let him off the hook.
"Do you know where classroom 3A is?"
"Yeah! Bio actually happens to be my first class today as well. Would you like me to escort you there babe?" he says and lifts up his arm encouraging me to take it. I don't.
"Uh sure" I say and follow him while keeping a distance. He seems like trouble.