Behind the Black Rimmed Glasses (Alexander Holtti Fanfiction){Discontinued}

Chapter 8

Natalie's POV
We sat down as the waiter brought the menu's and left. I took a quick look and immediately spotted what I wanted. I wanted a Fettuccine Alfredo with lemonade. The waiter came around and asked us what we wanted to start with.

"I'll take a lemonade please." I responded.

"I'll take a coke." Alex replied.

The waiter took the order and left to get our drinks.

"So..." I started.

"Soo... how's life I guess." Alex says.

"It's pretty nice I guess heh." I replied awkwardly.

I'm an awkward person don't judge.

"So, what do you like to eat?" Alex asked.

"Everything that is edible like nom nom yum!" I replied, happy to talk about food. One of the many things to talk about.

"So, what is your favorite color?" I asked.

"It's blue." He replied (Im sry I dont really know his favorite color.

"Cool mine is yellow because it reminds me of the sun which always keeps me happy because it is shiny. It protects me." I replied making it sound like a really sophisticated speech, but I'm not a sophisticated person. I'm broken. I'm depressed. I can't deal with many things anymore. Having a boyfriend was on the bottom of my bucket list. Finding happiness and becoming unbroken was down there too. Everything just reminds me of my crappy life. I'll never find happiness becuase I never had happiness. I'm just a broken, messed-up girl. I don't deserve Alex, he deserves a better person not a low life person. But, should I tell him? I don't know anymore. I honestly just can't even deal with life anymore. Why does god hate me do much. What have I ever done to deserve such a messed-up scarred life. I'm scared. I'm gloomy. I don't trust. Yep, just kill me. I don't deserve to live. I don't deserve happiness. Just kill me now.

Those were the last thoughts I was thinking before everything got blurred and darkness enveloped me.

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I woke up in a room that smelled like Alex. I know I'm weird I can recognize the smell of a person. But then again, I'm not normal. Alex came in with food.

"FOOD!!!!!" I yelled grabbing the most gorgeous thing in the world.

"Ah ah ah. Wait child, calm them titties." He said.

"They is calm, homeboi." I replied slyly.

"Well den ladies first." He replied.

There was so much food. Like, sausages, bagels, waffles, and of course fruits. I picked at the sausages, then my eyes fell upon the waffles. I picked up the waffles in case I changed my mind and took a large bite out of it. The richness filled my taste buds.

"Mmmmmh this is wonderful, like a rainbow." I complemented.

"Thanks?" Alex replied, unsure of his answer.

"Your welcome." I replied giddily. He's probably like what the fuck is wrong with that girl. Oh welps.

I gobbled down the rest of the breakfast with the help of Alex but I really didn't need his help to be honest. Well, sharing is caring I guess.

"Hey you wanna go to the park?" Alex asked.

"Sure." I replied and got ready which was just asking Alex for a comb and asking his mom for make up products I could use.

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As we got there, we sat down next to a nearby willow tree. I was getting up just as I heard a watch out and WHAM! My world went black.

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Hey guys I'm so sorry for not updating in quite a while, my phone got taken away so I couldn't update, thanks for a lot of reads too!

~mnmchu

Still sry but stay fresh!!