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Mia stares outside the window of her mother's car, silence filling the car as they drove to the gas station to meet Chase. There was a tiny feeling inside her that missed him, but she knows that she shouldn't. Music played faintly in the background as her mother turned the volume up slightly of the radio, having nothing to talk about. She looked at all the exit signs they were passing through, not sure if she wanted to meet him again. Mia could tell her mother to take the next exit out and just drive back home, but then she's be leaving Chase standing in the gas station looking awkward and would make him seem like he was loitering. As she met the halfway mark, she waited for her mother to start pumping gas into the car. She walked inside the gas station store and walked around, waiting for her ex to walk in so they could probably resolve their connection.
She picked up a few items, going through different sections of the store to kill the time and wait until he arrived. Once he did, they made eye contact with each other, the boy growing nervous and the girl growing cold. "Hey," It was all that could slip out of her mouth, hating herself for meeting him already. "If you want to talk, you should start talking, we don't have all day."
"I'm sorry, Mia. What more can I say to make you forgive me? I know I cheated and I know it's wrong, but please, I miss you and I want us to pretend that it never happened. You have been nothing but caring to me and I know that you'll want to talk again. I want things to go back to the way they were, I want to be with you again." He trailed behind her, trying to win her back somehow.
"You're sorry?" She had a pause in between the words, knowing that anger could build up at any moment. "Holy fuck, Chase, how can you be sorry? You cheated without hesitation and I had to find out through the internet. I was embarrassed, Chase! How would you know if I wanted to talk? You don't know me anymore, you never did because if you really knew me, then you'd know how bad Chandler had hurt me. You can't be with me again, what you did broke us, and I don't think that it can be fixed. Even if I wanted to be with you, I would see you as someone who had hurt me. If you knew cheated was wrong, then why'd you do it? You knew you would lose me and you still went and cheated, so why?" Mia had questions, things she wanted to understand. She looked at him, wanting to see him as the loving boy she once fell for, wanting to see if he was still the same person she knew. She had a small glimpse of hope sparkling in her eyes, hoping that he'd show her how he was enough to win her back.
"I don't know why, Mia, it just happened. I know that I want you to be with me so I can make it up to you. The only thing I want is for you to be in my arms so I can make you happy and not ruin it ever again. If you would give me another chance, then I can prove to you how much I care for you." That was the small sliver of hope she wanted, but something made her want to say no. As much as she wanted to run back into his arms, a part of her wanted to just find someone new and someone who didn't hurt her as her last two relationships.
"I want to be with you, I really do, but, I don't know if you'd hurt me again. My trust for you was gone once I found out. I cried my eyes out at Reed's place over you. I want to be so sure that you won't hurt me again, but I don't know if you're going to change. I'm scared, Chase. After what happened with you and Chandler, I'm scared to be in a relationship and I'm scared to commitment. What if I had gone back to you and I'm sad and angry in the relationship because of what happened? I don't want that for you." She cleared her throat and placed all the items back, looking away from him. Mia could feel the tears wanting to come out, she didn't want to cry in front of him, she'd rather cry in front of Reed for comfort. She didn't realize how badly she missed Chase until she saw him, her emotions washing through her like a wave once they made eye contact.
Then there they were, looking back into each other's eyes, a small space in between them. He started to lean in, and once the slightest of space was between them, she whispered a small 'I can't' and backed up, looking at him regretfully. She walked out of the store and into her mother's car, pulling out her phone. "Hello?"
"Hey, I'm coming over, I need comfort and need to just see you. I talked to him today, I don't know how I'm feeling." She hung up without letting him speak, bouncing her legs up and down on the way back to where she lived. She unblocked Chase's contact and sighed, hoping to feel the butterflies in her stomach she once felt when his name popped up on her phone.
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