Broken and Lifeless

You know who I am?

Tylers POV

Ok I thought tyler you have this don't get nervous you will be fine I said as I was about to walk out into the panel I got a notification it said "troye sivan followed you on tumblr" I will admit I was kind of fan girling but I composed myself and walked out. I walked with pride waving to my people and looking into the crowd as I got to the middle I saw him front row smack dab in the middle troye sivan came to MY panel I couldn't stop thinking about him he looks even hotter in person like damn daddy I want a piece of that. umm tyler i heard a voice say as I was snapped out of my thought and realized I was supposed to introduce myself. oh sorry ya'all HI! I'm tyler Oakley I said in my cheerful voice smiling big. God damn I thought I cant keep looking at troye but he is just so perfect. And then came question time troye stood up to ask a question and he said "hi tyler I'm troye sivan what's your craziest fan experience" he even says my name cute oh my god he melts me I composed myself and smiled giggling a little bit "well I think my craziest fan experience might have been something that wasn't really the fan but me" i sighed as I said these next words "I fell in love with a fan I found them on YouTube they talked about me in one of their videos and being tyler Oakley I watch everything about me I said giggling but what I didn't expect coming was the next fan question "HI TYLER!" The girl said. "so who was the fan what's their channel name" she said excitedly. FUCK WHAT DID I DO SHIT SHIT SHIT I SHOULDNT HAVE SAID ANYTHING GREAT FUCKING JOB TYLER! I yelled at myself in my head. sighing I leaned towards the mic "oh ha ha ha" I giggled nervously I could see troye staring at me his eyes were so beautiful. "Well his channel is....... troyesivan18 as I said this troye looked at me his eyes so wide I thought they would pop out of his head. his face turned beat red as he sunk into his seat. Well that's all the time we have for today I was interrupted by the staff. as fans crowded the table I saw troye run out of the room I chased after him leaving all the fans. "Troye!" I yelled down the hall as he turned around with the reddest face in the entire world he turned around speechless I asked "are you ok?" he looked at me and said y-y-you watch my YouTube channel? I just smiled of course I do I love your channel. would you maybe want to get dinner tonight or tomorrow troye? I asked him with a huge smirk on my face. "oh sure" troye said what time "how about 7:30" I questioned "sounds good see you in the lobby at 7:30 I smiled walking away.

Troye's POV

Did I just get asked out by tyler Oakley I thought to myself still confused by what had just happened no no it was probably just to hang out I better just go up to my room and get ready it's already 4:30 and I haven't done my daily Skype with my mum and dad. I walked up to my room and got into a black v neck with black skinny jeans then went to the bathroom to fix my hair which was a quiff at the Beginning of the day but then it became flat across my head I hated when It did that I looked likea fucking fetus every time. once I fixed all that and got ready I skyped my mum for a bit I didn't tell her about tyler though she would just tease me about it.

August 30th.

Troye's POV.

I still remember what happened last year between me and tyler if it didn't happen in the first place today would have been our two year anniversary as I thought about it my heart broke in two

last year August 29th.

*flashback starts*

Tyler's POV.

TROYE CAN YOU STOP! I yelled "FUCK TYLER WHAT DO YOU NEED IM TRYING TO FUCKING WRITE MUSIC!" ever since he has started working on that mother fucking EP he has been a total bitch I thought to myself. OK YOU KNOW WHAT TROYE IM DONE YOU ARE SUCH A FUCKING DIVA ALL I WANT IS FOR YOU TO SIT WITH ME AND CUDDLE ME I FEEL LIKE YOU DONT EVEN LOVE ME ANYMORE SO WHY ARE WE EVEN TOGETHER! when he turned around he looked worried because he knew what I was about to say but I knew there was no backing out now. what are you saying tyler? troye said his voice cracking a little bit I'm saying we need a break troye I'm breaking up with you I'm going to the bedroom to pack my bags and I'm calling marcus I just can't do this right now and your not the same troye Sivan I met at playlist live. I stormed off into the bedroom to pack my bags I didn't have the time to neatly fold everything I need to get out of here before he sees me cry after I walked out the door I went into my car and drove to marcus's house I say my car across the street from his house and cried I don't think I have ever cried so much in my entire life I love troye I really do but I can't take it anymore he is different now and it's not in a good way. after I calmed my self I dialed marcus. hey tyler what's up man. he said marcus I said my voice starting to crack, open your door because I'm coming in with some bags I need a place to stay after I said that I hung up and the tears streamed down my face and my face becoming red and heated what have I done to myself I just let the best thing that ever happened to me get away I fucking hate myself....

Troye's POV.

When I heard the door slam I went into the bedroom laid down and cried I have never cried so much tyler was my reason for living. the day before I started watching him was the last day I ever picked up my blade he made me feel confident in my own skin what the fuck did I do. GOD DAMNIT TROYE YOU FUCKING MORON WHY DO YOU HAVE TO FUCK EVERYTHING UP I thought. I got so fucking wrapped up in my damn music that I completely Fucking neglected tyler WHY AM I SUCH A DICK!

*flashback over*

August 30th

Troye's POV.

I woke up curled into a ball crying on my kitchen floor how did I end up here I thought I fell asleep on my bed. but that didn't matter all that mattered was that I would never ever see tyler again I would never be able to tell him I love him or wake up earlier than him in the morning and just looking over seeing his adorable peaceful face sleeping. I won't ever feel his touch or see his smile. at this point I was far past the tears rolling down my face at this point they were pouring down my face like a river stream I can't go on living without him I am not going to live in a world without tyler Oakley because a world without a tyler Oakley will be a world without a troye Sivan mellet.....

TO BE CONTINUED 🙊🙊🙊🙈🙈🙈

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AUTHORS NOTE: Hey guys yes IK omg this is a HUGE cliff hanger but hopefully it will get you intrigued and excited for me to update 😏 so if you like this story vote for it and comment telling me what you think BC I love this story and I already have an amazing and not super sad idea for another story 😜 after I finish writing this one kk friends that slay together stay together (your my friends btw) 😂 forever slaying ok I'm done WAIT maybe one could say this story is........ slaytacular ok I'm done in ashamed in sorry I'm a loser k bye 🙈💁